oh my goodness! i have $206 in the bank!! i'm so fucking surprised. i was hoping i'd have at least enough to pay the registration fee on my bartending school....whooo hoo!! i have plenty!! and i'm also going to buy my friend's baby a Nirvana onesy, cause they dont have much money, and that's just a fucking necessity (my friend Lori is one of the...
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i feel like my heart is slowly disintergrating into millions of tiny pieces. i haven't even set a foot outside in two days. i'm not eating very much, maybe once a day. i sleep really late, later every day, and i hate it. i'm not showering very often, not cleaning up after myself. i'm very listless and have zero energy. i'm so lonely. i'm aching...
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i'm dying of loneliness. he's the last thing i think of when i fall asleep, and the first thing i think of when i wake up. i dont want to be without him. i dont think i can bare it. as mad as he makes me sometimes, i cant stop loving him, and i cant let him go. i really dont think we're a lost...
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horrible morning today...as of early this morning (1am-ish) i am once again single. needless to say, i am not happy about it. i had my interview, i think it went ok...the guy was supposed to call this evening...but he didn't. i really want this job. i want to sleep next to roland right now, but that's not going to happen anymore... 
WHOO HOOOOO!!! i just got called for an interview at CVS Pharmacy....yay me! it's tomorrow at 9am, which kind of sucks, but oh well, i'll deal with it. everyone please keep your fingers crossed for me!!! i really really really want this job *claps hands togeather like a lunatic* on another note, i had a really great dream this morning, and now i'm sad cause...
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my fucking ass is killing me!!! 
yay!! i have a new friend!!! i'm strating not to be such a losery loner!! whoo hoo! 
I'm really, really, really confused.
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i hate it when i feel like i hate every person on the planet, and i want all of them to drop dead where they stand. i hate feeling pessimistic and anti-social. i hate when i'm angry or frustrated w/ one person or situation, and i take it out on the whole world. i hate that when i'm mad, i talk to myself, complain to...
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i thought about bartending school for a long time, i never actually looked into how much it cost but i thought it would be a rad job. good luck!