delores

ok, went to the gyno today. it turns out i dont have a UTI, i could very possibly have a disease called Interstitial Cystitis. it goes all along with bladder infections and the like...but it's chronic, they dont know what causes it, and there is no cure.
to be officially diagnosed i have to find a urologist and get a cystoscopy with hydordistention under general anesthesia. i guess this means they pretty much bloat out your bladder w/ water and then they can see the tiny little hemorrhages that this thing causes. and i could also need a biopsy of my bladder to rule out any other diseases... when the doctor told me this, i was ok and did the rest of my exam just fine... it wasn't until later, first in the car on the way home, then at arctcknight's house that i lost it completely. there is pretty much nothing that they can do about this thing. there's a medication i can take, but it isn't a sure thing, and they suggest a change in diet, but the foods they list that irriate the condition, is pretty much all foods w/ any flavor at all...and caffine! fuck and caffine! what am i going to do w/out my fucking caffine!? the pamphlets my doc. gave me and the official IC website weren't much of a help. i am going to find a regular practice doctor and get a second opinion, since i've already had two UTIs in the past year and a half and anti-biotics got rid of them... i did take like 5 does of Cystex in the past 48 hours...that might have fucked up the pee test...i dont fucking know.

on a better note, the receptionist who took my co-pay and junk today called me when i got home and told me that i can talk to the people that provide my birth control to the insurance people and crap, and get a perscription writen out from my gyno and actually have my depo sent to my house! and i can either go to my gyno office and have them stick me for $15, or if i know anyone who is a nurse or something, i can just have them do it! it fucking made my day. i think that's what kept the bad news from sinking faster than it did. i'm going to call them tomorrow, and if they're closed for the weekend, i'll call Monday...

yuck, monday is going to suck. arctcknight is leaving on monday.

my armpits have been stinking like crazy lately. i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me. i've been wearing deoderant every single day...i usually never ever get b.o. unless i dont wear deoderant and sweat alot...i didn't sweat at all today that i could think of . it was surprisingly cool outside today. i mean, i wanted a sweater and everything.

i bought cute pink and white striped knee socks today, and some super cute undies yesterday...may do a set if i feel up to it. gonna have a bad week i know it.