i hate fighting, i hate feeling sorry for myself, i hate knowing i'm wrong, i hate people being mad at me, i hate how my eyes feel after a night of bawling, i hate when my bottom lip turns down when i'm sad, i hate that my throat is so dry and my mucus is so copious that i can't swallow, i hate that my chest hurts, i hate that i have a yucky taste in my mouh, i hate when i take my pain and anger out on other people, i hate when things go wrong, i hate when people get misunderstood, i hate when i fight even though i realize i'm wrong, i hate when i feel like apologizing for EVERYTHING, i hate being called selfish, i hate that look in your eyes, i hate that tone of voice, i hate feeling helpless, i hate feeling like it's all my fault, i hate it when it IS all my fault, i hate missing you... i hate that i'm about to talk to you on the phone and that i might make a doormat of myself... 