delores

talked to roland this morning, i think things will be ok. i got called this afternoon about being a relay opperator for the hearing impaired, cause i've got awesome typing skills. but i had to turn down an interview because they are in chandler, and i would need a car for that. i'm sad cause that would have been cool. but she did say for...
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ok, let's see...
before i went to work yesterday, ultimatelewser sent me some pics that were to become his latest Suicide Boys set. so yummy! I was the very first to see it, so eat your hearts out girls! hehe j/k.
talked to him some more when i got home from work. also talked to roland some. he says we can be friends (which is...
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yester day kinda sucked. work was really shitty. those old bitches have it out for me i swear. i got to come home an hour early so i could take a nap (havne't been sleeping well). i was planning to bet online around 6:30 so i could talk to ultimatelewser but my mom would not fucking get off. she was even doing any thing at...
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not much to tell today. yesterday was pretty uneventful. went to work, it sucked. but the time did fly by. when i got home, more mushy stuff w/ ultimatelewser. hahaha. yeah were a pair of big dorks.

i got work real soon. i hate sundays. getting up at 10am, to work at 11, just sucks!!

well, today was another good day. got another resume' response,loaded up some pictures and talked to ultimatelewser all evening...couldn't be better. i think we're both deeply smitten. is something still a crush two people have it on eachother and they both know about eachother's feelings?

hmmm... well, i put up some new pics this morning, actually they were from yesterday, but didn't have the chance...
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my day was better than i ever could have expected. first off, i got two replies to the resume' i put on Monster.com the other day. i made an appointment to meet w/ one of them on tuesday morning. so that's exciting. then i find an e-mail from ultimatelewser, and i'm like (cause i think he's super cute). after i return the mail, i...
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"As if to knock me down, reality came around, and without so much as a mere touch, cut me into little pieces."

so yeah, it's over. i feel like a piece of me is gone inside...man, that sounds corny, but i feel a little hollow. not completely hollow, but a little hollow. a little piece of me is gone.
it all ended last night. after...
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i feel like i'm being punished for something, and i dont even know what for. that's got to be one of the worst feelings in the world. i hate being confused or left in the dark. it makes me feel like shit. i've felt like shit for the past five days, cause i have no idea what's going on. this is the first day i've...
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i miss my boy! i haven't seen him since monday night. he hasn't even called me today... i'm gonna cry. i even offered him sex last night (which we haven't had in a while, i haven't been feeling well), and he opted to smoke out than see me... makes me a little sad.... paranoid fears are starting to brood in my head. it's a full...
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ok, huge weight lifted. mom's not going to lose the house. so happy i could really fucking cry. miss aquarius, haven't seen him in 3 days.
i'm all itch everywear and it's driving me nuts. i just cannot wait for this week to be over. i'll feel so much better when i dont have anything to do, and that i'm sure we're in the...
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ok, now my butt hurts. i've got some mad diarrhea, and i dont know why. so my butt and my vagina hurts. and i'm listening to a song from the CAT'S soundtrack (the rum tum tugger), and no one has any right to laugh, cause if anyone's seen the movie production they did of it, then they know how fucking sexy the show is. all...
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i'm so fucking tired from work. this weekend has been the one for the psychos.
and my mom might lose the house if she doesn't come up w/ $3000 by this Friday. i'm trying to help her however i can, which is hard cause i dont get paid for shit.
i deffinetly have an infection of the urinary area, tract or bladder or whatever, i...
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