A few days ago, I received some bitter sweet news.
Was I happy upon hearing said news?
Not particularly. More relieved(maybe) almost like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders.
But
Now the gravity of the news is finally hitting me. HARD.
Wanting to be a good friend, I honestly wanted to be happy for my friend but the tiny shit part of me sort of wants a different route.
Can I press refresh?
Earlier today though, I did experience deja vu.
A part of me hates that I feel this way pertaining to the news given to me. Lately, I've been feeling quite off track but then I remembered my resolve and followed my gut once again. The results weren't what I wanted but it was to be expected. At least now I'm back on the right path. Everything that I'm feeling and experiencing needs to happen for something greater for my future.
In the book The Alchemist, they mention if you truly want something, the world will conspire to help you achieve your goals. All you need is to listen to your 'self' and believe in all the omens that come your way even it's good or bad, those signs were set in your path to test your will.
Anyways, I'm feeling like shit right now but im finally back on track to find my happiness.
Watch over me?
Later days
