As you know a few days ago my boyfriend passed away. Billy was the reason why I got into wanting to be a Suicide Girl model. Every time i sent him a new picture of me it made me feel really good when I saw that he had used it as his background picture on his phone. Now that he's gone, and I guess you could say strange, it saddens me to know that I no longer have someone special to send my pictures to. Not saying everyone that has followed me so far is not special, you all have been a huge support to me and it makes me very happy to know that people are enjoying my pictures. I was a very insecure person. I used to hate having to look at myself in the mirror. I would sometimes cry knowing that I could never be attractive or look like the girls that everybody looked at. But Billy made me feel so beautiful and made me feel so good about myself. He taught me to love myself. I'm so grateful to have found someone so patient and so gentle and so sweet to put up with me. I know i put him through hell. He even broke up with me and said to someone i was too much drama but we still ended up staying together. What i wanted to say is until i could feel comfortable again to want to take pictures I'm going to be stepping down I'm pursuing to be a suicide girl model. I'll still continue being a member on this site, I really enjoyed this community and the awesome people on here. I'm sorry for jumping ship but it's something I need to do. Thank you everyone that has followed me so far I hope you'll still continue following me and eventually I'll be ok to take pictures again. Till then, thank you and I love you guys see you soon.
