delilla

fuck! i can't sleep, i have some shit on my mindand i just need to get it out i guess, i just don't know where to start with it,
my bf(best friend) has been going over to another chicks house (shawns), the thing is with this chick is 6 months ago my bf and i stoped talkin , for only god knows what ,i think she got jealous over this chick right , so i get an e-mail from my bf saying( i guess you chose your side and about how shawn is an untrusting whore and that i guess i'll just find out the hard way and all this other BS) at the time them 2 weren't really gettin along, and i mean hated each other, when i wasn't talkin to my bf i got real depressed and cryed3weeks bc i missed her so much and i never stoped missing her, then tells me when we start talkin again that i did nothing wrong and that she had been stressed out and didn't mean to take it out on me,i did everything she asked of me and it's like that now again we started talkin but now my bf is gettin a divorce and gettin remarried to another man, so she has enough probs already and i didn't want to bring up the fact i was gettin pissed off, she doesn't need the extra stress. not to mention the other chick is in the same exact situation, bc i am not i know i can't help her awhole lot , all i can do is listen and give her a shoulder to cry on if she needed one, i do know that they would be able to count on each other for support, but i guess what really bothers me about it ,is all the shit my bf talked about her and same for the other chick too that i feel left out by someone i looked to as a sister , imean the other chick lives across the fuckin street and when my bf goes over there she won't seem to walk over and say hi, she just calls me and tells me new incounters that here and her soon X have..... i mean really, fuckin come on now!

i really feel i'm at a loss and i don't know what to do , this shit between us is makein me physicaly sick, but mently hurting me all over again, i feel another brokenheart from her comeing on