delilahjack

My life is a bit lame right now. I get bluesy towards new year and at least for the few months until i start to wear in the shoes of the year so to speak. I need to acclimatise myself generally because i'm a bit vulnerable to societal preconceptions that i HAVE to achieve something by a certain date on my calender. It might be argued that my rebellion towards this bizarre form of vague determinism is because i hate being told i have to do anything and even less by a certain time. So perhaps my new years resolution should be to listen to what society tells me i should do, or perhaps not. Indecision and determinism...funny things eh.

I need to decide what to do with my life and i'm not enjoying that sinking feeling either, that someone who is inherently lacking in ambitious can only feel when they've realised they have to get a proper job.

Boy trouble. When is there not.

Who needs a relationship, who needs to completely understand themselves and why they act the way they do?

I do, desperately. But. If i finally do reach that nirvana of piece of mind, the complete puzzle of my life and therefore any meaning of it comes to an end. I really do think that the most dangerous people in the world are content to be who they are, they never strive to achieve anything better and blame everything that they do on something beyond their control, but the fact of the matter is. You are always in control. Do something. Anything. Just remember that whatever you do, has a consequence. so just ask yourself if the consequence of not doing something better or worse than doing it?