sigh.
Today has been a long Saturday. I've been up since 7:30am doing productive things all day. It's now close to 2am, and I'm finally able to be by myself and relax.
Tonight, I was supposed to go out with a group of friends. We do go out, but only half of the normal group attended. Okay, we'll make the party anyway. We start out downtown at Charlies, share a pitcher of beer and chat for a bit. It was within ten minutes of the conversation that I realized that I actually have nothing in common with these people. Seriously. After, we go to the Old Post. They drink and I just stare around the room at all of the people who are having so much fun and all seem to meld well with each other as the four of us (all completely different) stare aimlessly at the keg taps trying to find conversation.
I ended up heading home shortly after because they were going to watch movies. Something really random about myself: I can't watch movies with groups of people. For me, vegging out infront of the TV is a very private thing. If I'm with a group of people, I feel the need to converse or do something social instead of staring mindless at a box. It really irritates me when people suggest that as entertainment.
I know it pissed my friend off, but I'd much rather be sitting in a bar watching actual people than watching movies at 1am just so we don't have to talk to each other.
I'm tried now.
Today has been a long Saturday. I've been up since 7:30am doing productive things all day. It's now close to 2am, and I'm finally able to be by myself and relax.
Tonight, I was supposed to go out with a group of friends. We do go out, but only half of the normal group attended. Okay, we'll make the party anyway. We start out downtown at Charlies, share a pitcher of beer and chat for a bit. It was within ten minutes of the conversation that I realized that I actually have nothing in common with these people. Seriously. After, we go to the Old Post. They drink and I just stare around the room at all of the people who are having so much fun and all seem to meld well with each other as the four of us (all completely different) stare aimlessly at the keg taps trying to find conversation.
I ended up heading home shortly after because they were going to watch movies. Something really random about myself: I can't watch movies with groups of people. For me, vegging out infront of the TV is a very private thing. If I'm with a group of people, I feel the need to converse or do something social instead of staring mindless at a box. It really irritates me when people suggest that as entertainment.
I know it pissed my friend off, but I'd much rather be sitting in a bar watching actual people than watching movies at 1am just so we don't have to talk to each other.
I'm tried now.
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herotozero:
i had what i guess you can call a one night stand on friday night...first time its ever happened and i feel really shitty about it...my heart just goes to someone else and the thought of what i did makes me feel really disapointed in myself... 
herotozero:
one day i hope...its hard to really think of what will come of anissa and i...i think alot of guys actually dont think in that sense about sex, its just with the macho male ego that multiplies with every male friend turns them to go against their actual feelings and instead try to act like a badass...