dekansilent

why is everyone from pittsburgh all bummed out or having problems. it seems whenever i'm happy or content, everyone is down. but whenever i'm all depressed everyone is having the times of their lives.

i hate life, and life definately plays fair. i wish.

-Dek
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nothing beats going to livermoore on a full moon and clear night. no need for flash lights, the moon hits off the water and lights everything up. the woods are dimmly lit by the moon cutting through the trees. i could spend all night there just admiring the beautiful scenery of the lakes and flood plains. how i wish i had any skill of painting,...
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well back from my journey to the point, a good time was had. but it seems when i leave things always get fucked up. anyways i want to just say everyone go send clara your wishes, she's going through a lot of stuff that no one should be put through. and clara if you're reading this, hang in there, things are bound to start looking...
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cedar point

be back sat night/sunday morning

sl
So it's safe to say that we've been here before,
heart torn out,
down for the count,
and still come back for more,
this lesson is learned too well,
though,
only unlearned by the time your wounds have healed,
have you had enough?
I guess not because your lips are stuck to his,
It's time to say enough is enough,
you would be so...
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last night was the first night we actually got to meet, it was nice, we got dinner, and talked. i was amazed she remembered that i was a veggie. she told me things that others never get to hear. did i want to hear about those things, i don't know. am i able to handle what seemed like the truth, no. but it all seemed...
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i've decided to keep my silence, who knows it'll probably be better that i do.

my search for a new job still continues, i'm jealous, my friend got a job for $14 an hour, but it's the graveyard shift but i would care if i got something like that. i'm usually up until 6 am anyways so i think i'd do fine with something like...
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my mind is blank, i feel empty, i feel not whole, what am i missing?


maybe when i think of something smart i'll say it.


if i told the girl i loved her would she hate me?


-Dek
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these songs mean so much when you laying here in this bed waiting for all of these sleeping pills to kick in.

hey,
i guess i'll figure it out,
the reasons why things went the way they did,
and why we can't accept it,
and we'd fall asleep,
but not before we exercise,
the evil things everyone has,
we will lie there in my bed,...
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with every passing moment,
it just keeps getting worse,
the walls are getting smaller
and i'm six feet beneath the earth
and i will be
oh i will be
just lost.....
s_f
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i felt it was time to update my journal, but i don't really have that much to say. i just figure life can't get much worse right now. actually i just thought...
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am i going crazy...
today definately wasn't my day.

i always say you can fuck with my mind but never my heart.

today i waken up like any other day. just as i'm heading into town and waiting for my friend on the street a bum looking guy tells me to not let love slip out of my hands then as he was walking away...
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