defpony

the other day someone came up and asked me if im still depressed, and it made me just think to myself if you have any intelligence at all how could you not be. just look around you, tell me you're genuinely happy with whats going on, i mean i live in canada where it is still LEGAL to club baby seals. sometimes this place just makes me sick. on another note why are people so fucking dissappointing family, girls, friends, work, everything is always dissappointing, i mean sometimes you're happy with things but then you realise, you werent truly happy it was some sort of facade your brain made up to get through the day. shit is fucked man shit is fucked. haha. anyways i went to my brothers on sunday and his gf cooked me a lovely dinner followed by more drinks then you could imagine, a game of poker in which i won, and then i went for a walk and met a truly interesting person, she was quite cool, definately not the normal gurl i get caught up with, she had a brain, hahaha. i want to go back to england.

This morning when I awoke from the cushioned coils,
eyes pouring their little hearts.
It didn't feel normal waking here religiously,
thinking the same black thoughts.
As always you weren't lying next to me,
with that smirk on your face right then.
Were you giving me the images constantly flickering.
I'll take the advice passed down.
I see you on your side, bad luck.
Starlit nights when I awoke from the cushioned coils,
eyes pouring their little hearts. It didn't feel normal.
Nightmares stop reality, thinking the same black thoughts.
And this is the last time I'll be confused or compromise my emotions.