well i seem to have made it out of a another weekend alive...how do u start over cause that's what i think i need right now...
just a fresh start new friends new life new location new everything but i am too afraid and dont know how... cause im too lazy and scared.
i need to be with like minded people who love to listen as well as talk. but i dont wanna share too much but i wanna be a part of something u know.. something real. and i wanna say i dont want drama but hell drama is life and sometimes funny. cause i hate being and feeling all alone. but i like my quiet time. confusing right?? and i need to get off of the alcohol ..damm that shit is bad for u. i just need to find something u know i dont know what it is but it needs to make me at least think or feel like i am not all alone....
can u go on a vision quest or something do they still do that and if so where do u go??
and then after u get there how do u know what is real after u have found it .... i mean what makes it real ... besides like seeing and touching ....and the feel how it feels ....
i mean wow... right?? or something
just a fresh start new friends new life new location new everything but i am too afraid and dont know how... cause im too lazy and scared.
i need to be with like minded people who love to listen as well as talk. but i dont wanna share too much but i wanna be a part of something u know.. something real. and i wanna say i dont want drama but hell drama is life and sometimes funny. cause i hate being and feeling all alone. but i like my quiet time. confusing right?? and i need to get off of the alcohol ..damm that shit is bad for u. i just need to find something u know i dont know what it is but it needs to make me at least think or feel like i am not all alone....
can u go on a vision quest or something do they still do that and if so where do u go??
and then after u get there how do u know what is real after u have found it .... i mean what makes it real ... besides like seeing and touching ....and the feel how it feels ....
i mean wow... right?? or something
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oceana_____:
have you ever tried to meditate...i am not very good at it and it is hard...completely clearing your mind only focusing on breathing in and out...i know what it is like to need a new start...i guess you could say that is why i jumped at the chance to come to europe for a while...get away from my normal life and try something different, maybe i will appreciate what i have back home better now or maybe i will simply realize what i have back home just isnt what i want or need in my life right now...well hope things work out better!!! 
coralee:
Because AK47's are sexy