deflicted

well got dumped...but she is still my "friend" whatever that means. anyways this will be the first weekend with out her and i have no idea what i am going to do. i usually go over to her house and do whatever come back get drunk then fuck.... so i am not getting any and well that is important but id rather have her back as my gf and just go without the sex i can soooo hold it in. i mean my friends used to call me the blue ball king. but what hurts the most is i thought this was the one i mean u know settle down and all that jazz. but oh well either she will come to her senses or i am just destined to walk the earth alone.......