I'm done. I'm tired of fighting it.
Its going to be hard it is going to hurt.
Today we tried to have a normal conversation and it didnt work.
I was at fault for tunring it into the possibility of us starting over.
He got emotional and blew the fuck up.
He even told me that he loves me, cares about me and could honestly see him spending the rest of his life with me. But he wouldnt be happy.
When I asked why..... all he could say, was because of what happened.
I didnt do fucking shit. I tried to keep him from leaving. I scratched his fucking neck when he pushed me away.
he tried to make it sound like Im a freakin boyfriend beater.
I can not believe that i am the one seeking help.
Dont get me wrong, I know I need it. At least Im not the one in denial.
I'm done. I told him all I could. I said I love him and I want him to be in my life.........That i will support him forever and be there for ever. That i love him even thru all the hate. The choice is his now.
He isnt the same person I remember. I do not know what made him crack. He is that person I first met.
That person who would rather be in IRAQ shooting people and risking his life than to be here facing his own problems.
Again, now he is saying if he doesnt get this firefighting job that he is interviewing for on monday, he is leaving. He doesnt know where or what or if he will volunteer to go back to Iraq. He just cant be here.
He has alot going on......and because of our problems, I cant even be there to help him.
So I'll give him time. Hopefully, he wont let it run out.
Still looking for a roommate people
2 Bedroom Apt 1 1/2 bath very spacious. Decent closet space. If you or anyone else might be interested email me kimierk@gmail.com
Its going to be hard it is going to hurt.
Today we tried to have a normal conversation and it didnt work.
I was at fault for tunring it into the possibility of us starting over.
He got emotional and blew the fuck up.
He even told me that he loves me, cares about me and could honestly see him spending the rest of his life with me. But he wouldnt be happy.
When I asked why..... all he could say, was because of what happened.
I didnt do fucking shit. I tried to keep him from leaving. I scratched his fucking neck when he pushed me away.
he tried to make it sound like Im a freakin boyfriend beater.
I can not believe that i am the one seeking help.
Dont get me wrong, I know I need it. At least Im not the one in denial.
I'm done. I told him all I could. I said I love him and I want him to be in my life.........That i will support him forever and be there for ever. That i love him even thru all the hate. The choice is his now.
He isnt the same person I remember. I do not know what made him crack. He is that person I first met.
That person who would rather be in IRAQ shooting people and risking his life than to be here facing his own problems.
Again, now he is saying if he doesnt get this firefighting job that he is interviewing for on monday, he is leaving. He doesnt know where or what or if he will volunteer to go back to Iraq. He just cant be here.
He has alot going on......and because of our problems, I cant even be there to help him.
So I'll give him time. Hopefully, he wont let it run out.
Still looking for a roommate people
2 Bedroom Apt 1 1/2 bath very spacious. Decent closet space. If you or anyone else might be interested email me kimierk@gmail.com
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