The issues at hand are never far from my thoughts. I eat very little, and sleep fitfully. I feel horrible, and even more so unjustified at that. I feel like a douche for how I've been, but at the same time cannot fix my feelings and their impact.
Glossing things over seems such a simple answer, but makes obvious the fact that history, when forgotton,...
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Fuck this. I'm out.
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chemakil:
You all can blame me.
abyssbecomesme:
why did you remove me as a friend?
::sigh::
not fair.
::sigh::
not fair.
This existence is pointless and cruel.
all emotion aside, one cannot disagree without kidding themselves or investing in intangible belief.
And a royal "fuck you" to anyone that takes this to be a statement of being a drama queen, "goth", or any other persuasion.
all emotion aside, one cannot disagree without kidding themselves or investing in intangible belief.
And a royal "fuck you" to anyone that takes this to be a statement of being a drama queen, "goth", or any other persuasion.
For those of you that listen to Dead Kennedys:
"Take this job AND SHOVE IT!"
That would be the rought jist of my letter that I just handed my employer. Now I have that song stuck in my head. I think I'll play it REALLY LOUD on a loop until the 30th of this month. Heh.
Wish me luck and clarity of judgement for Wednesday......
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"Take this job AND SHOVE IT!"
That would be the rought jist of my letter that I just handed my employer. Now I have that song stuck in my head. I think I'll play it REALLY LOUD on a loop until the 30th of this month. Heh.
Wish me luck and clarity of judgement for Wednesday......
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disastermagnet:
well, what's yer alternative? Working at fucking Starbucks? I'd KILL for an office job right about now. The major perk, after all, is that you don't have to deal with the god damn public.
And heeellll yeah I'm glad you're feeling The Room. I rather like it myself. I still can't fathom your irrational hatred for SH3, but I guess that's because I'm something of a rabid Silent Hill fan. So I'll just let it be I suppose. Although, there is a really wicked tie-in with SH3 which you may have missed? Oh well.
And "thank you" for wishing me luck with my remixes. Although, I think I'm going to can my Roadrunner remix...I'm finding that those samples aren't very malleable...I move them in pitch very much before they start to break. And that, my friend, makes for some tough remixing....
And heeellll yeah I'm glad you're feeling The Room. I rather like it myself. I still can't fathom your irrational hatred for SH3, but I guess that's because I'm something of a rabid Silent Hill fan. So I'll just let it be I suppose. Although, there is a really wicked tie-in with SH3 which you may have missed? Oh well.
And "thank you" for wishing me luck with my remixes. Although, I think I'm going to can my Roadrunner remix...I'm finding that those samples aren't very malleable...I move them in pitch very much before they start to break. And that, my friend, makes for some tough remixing....
clairevoyance:
Drum n Bass for a fucked up place. 
For all those with no clue about tha coolness: Five Fuckin' Deez, mang.
Chill instrumental hiphop with a jazz influence. Great chillin' music.
Chill instrumental hiphop with a jazz influence. Great chillin' music.
chemakil:
I'm so exited about our new project of the tattoo. yay... 
Sheer panic at work.
Sheer boredem with life.
I need a vacation. Heh.
Sheer boredem with life.
I need a vacation. Heh.
This last weekend has been, hands down, the craziest experience I've had since highschool.
Large piles of drugs, drinking moonshine in a ghetto ass trailer park in San Jose, and just getting fuckin tore up at every possible instance.
I feel as though my body has been through a trash compactor, but I needed the fucking release, and regret nothing. Now to ice my head...
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Large piles of drugs, drinking moonshine in a ghetto ass trailer park in San Jose, and just getting fuckin tore up at every possible instance.
I feel as though my body has been through a trash compactor, but I needed the fucking release, and regret nothing. Now to ice my head...
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I seem to be on the path of becomeing a total suit. I fucking HATE that idea.
Look at that profile image. Just look at it. Buttondown white workshirt, short trimmed hair, huge dork-alerting arrow...
WOW. I'm a fucking tool.
I successfully have discovered and fufilled my nightmare 10-15 years ahead of schedule. FUCK!
I'm gonna go cry. (again, my pansy-ass weakling programmer self inflicts...
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Look at that profile image. Just look at it. Buttondown white workshirt, short trimmed hair, huge dork-alerting arrow...
WOW. I'm a fucking tool.
I successfully have discovered and fufilled my nightmare 10-15 years ahead of schedule. FUCK!
I'm gonna go cry. (again, my pansy-ass weakling programmer self inflicts...
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disastermagnet:
ouch!
Is there any more potent way of expressing one's unhappyness than in database format? Truly, there is not.
On my end, I still have no work, and no prospects. Wanna trade?
Oh, and I'm working on a remix for that competition that someone posted in the dnb group. You should check out the original track, it's pretty neat.
And yes, I'm going to remix it in the hardcore sound....
Is there any more potent way of expressing one's unhappyness than in database format? Truly, there is not.
On my end, I still have no work, and no prospects. Wanna trade?
Oh, and I'm working on a remix for that competition that someone posted in the dnb group. You should check out the original track, it's pretty neat.
And yes, I'm going to remix it in the hardcore sound....
billenium:
although your entry fills me with sympathy, your new profile pic fills me with laughter. I wish I had a 'dork' arrow, so i could do away with the torture of actually interacting with people to let them know. This way they'd go, "Oh wait, hes a dork, lets leave" and they and I could carry on as if it never happened.
I HATE DEMOS!!!!! Fuck shit son of bitch assnut masturbatingdonkeyshitraper!!!!!
Sorry.
Spent from about 9 am to 1:30 pm getting my shit handed to me by a bunch of "intelligent" site coordinators using my web system. By intelligent, I mean that they have a 4 year degree in "teaching soccer", and generally know how to use the left mouse button.
Despite the fact that a...
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Sorry.
Spent from about 9 am to 1:30 pm getting my shit handed to me by a bunch of "intelligent" site coordinators using my web system. By intelligent, I mean that they have a 4 year degree in "teaching soccer", and generally know how to use the left mouse button.
Despite the fact that a...
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disastermagnet:
Oh man, I had some shit like that happen. A few times, actually. There was this one time when I was trying to help out this lady who was a mortgage broker give a presentation to a client and the system crashed. The dude was thinking of getting a mortgage on a 2.5 million dollar house, so that was nerve wracking. This other time I was giving a demo of the Fax Server that I built to the whole mortgage company, and the machine crashed for some other reason. But I got through that one by going "Oh man, I guess this computer doesn't want to do that today. Must be cranky." which got a chuckle. Grace under pressure...heyoooooooo!
But now, down to the real business. Do I detect hate for Heather? Unacceptable. Heather RULES....and don't you forget it. Seriously, she's my favorite SH protagonist. Granted, SH2 was probably a tighter game, but I enjoyed playing Heather WAY more than I enjoyed playing Harry or James. Never mind the fact that she reacts better in combat, she says cool stuff when she looks at everything. I shall convert you, if it's the last thing I do.
SH4? I've got screen shots in my pictures area. Folder is called "The Room". You can hit Gamespot of you want to see more. Basically the premise is that this dude is trapped in his apartment, finds a hole in the bathroom wall, goes through and finds himself in another dimension. Or something. I don't care, I already have it reserved, I'm such a SH fanatic that I'm going to love it no matter what.
But now, down to the real business. Do I detect hate for Heather? Unacceptable. Heather RULES....and don't you forget it. Seriously, she's my favorite SH protagonist. Granted, SH2 was probably a tighter game, but I enjoyed playing Heather WAY more than I enjoyed playing Harry or James. Never mind the fact that she reacts better in combat, she says cool stuff when she looks at everything. I shall convert you, if it's the last thing I do.
SH4? I've got screen shots in my pictures area. Folder is called "The Room". You can hit Gamespot of you want to see more. Basically the premise is that this dude is trapped in his apartment, finds a hole in the bathroom wall, goes through and finds himself in another dimension. Or something. I don't care, I already have it reserved, I'm such a SH fanatic that I'm going to love it no matter what.
Werk, werk, werk, werk...
(set to the tune of "spam" from Monty Python)
Horrible WERK, horrible werk!
Horrible WERK, horrible werrrrrk!
I DON'T LIEK WERK!
(whaddyou mean you don't liek werk?)
(set to the tune of "spam" from Monty Python)
Horrible WERK, horrible werk!
Horrible WERK, horrible werrrrrk!
I DON'T LIEK WERK!
(whaddyou mean you don't liek werk?)
disastermagnet:
Ahhhhh yes.
I'm looking forward to a day when I, too, can despise work once again.
Lucky for me, that way is reeeeeeaaallllly far away! (really, I think I could use another "whatever" right here-> ) (ahhh. Perfect. What a worthwhile edit.)
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I'm looking forward to a day when I, too, can despise work once again.
Lucky for me, that way is reeeeeeaaallllly far away! (really, I think I could use another "whatever" right here-> )
(ahhh. Perfect. What a worthwhile edit.)
[Edited on Aug 30, 2004 4:52PM]
*sigh*
My curiosity is killing me, but I'm going to override my urge to scream "TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!" and instead, calmly wish you well.
Feel better buddy.
And hurry back to us soon.
You got your wish, and now I am on my way to trying to hate you again. That way it will be easier for you to look away and just keep on walking, right? To just leave me crying in teh streets.....right? I told you I would do whatever it would take to make you happy. I hope this is what you wanted.
YOU DON'T OWN ME OR MY PUSSY, and if thats what you need in order to be happy in life, well then I'm sorry. I was your best friend and you are actually putting your insecurities on me because of this shit. In that case I have way too much control over your happiness. In which case you are right....leave, and don't ever look back. But I think you are weakening and limiting yourself by saying you can't change yourself. I hope your plan works this time, because I'm sick of this cycle too. The only person you are sabotaging is yourself. Only a best friend would know that. ONLY I WOULD KNOW YOU ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT.
I understand why you are upset, but apparently there is some shit you need to fucking get over and move on. I'm not your slut. I'm not yours to own.
I am at a fucking horrible place because a huge part of me just wants to visit you and make things better.....or try. The other part of me never wants to talk to you again... to see how you like it, when all this blows over and you actually message me again.
Say what you will. assume what you must. I just hope this time something does change within you and us.
[Edited on Sep 20, 2004 5:47PM]
[Edited on Sep 20, 2004 5:48PM]