It's currently 1:22 in the AM.
I'm currently very distraught and discontent with myself, and feel the need to express this. If no one reads this, I will not care. I just need to vent, somewhere.
So, my dad came home tonight from the bar, and this was our conversation.
Dad - I'm sorry I came home late again, as usual.
Me - It's okay dad.
Dad - No, it's not. I'm sorry. .. Which day did you say you were moving to your apartment for good?
Me - This Saturday.
Dad - .. That's going to be the saddest day of my life.
Me - (in tears).. Dad, I'm going to be home lots, you know that.
Dad - Everynight before I go to bed, I'm going to worry about you.
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Needless to say, I'm a bit of a wreck right now.
All of my friends who are leaving/moving out for school, further from home than I am, I realize are in less of a sad situation than I.
Their parents seem to all have someone else, like a husband or wife.. another child.
I realize that I'm all my dad has in this lonely house.
And what am I doing? I'm leaving him.
I know that it was bound to happen at some point - but I feel now as though it is too soon for him to handle.
He even said so himself, "I'm not going to be able to handle this".
Oh life....
Sigh.
I'm currently very distraught and discontent with myself, and feel the need to express this. If no one reads this, I will not care. I just need to vent, somewhere.
So, my dad came home tonight from the bar, and this was our conversation.
Dad - I'm sorry I came home late again, as usual.
Me - It's okay dad.
Dad - No, it's not. I'm sorry. .. Which day did you say you were moving to your apartment for good?
Me - This Saturday.
Dad - .. That's going to be the saddest day of my life.
Me - (in tears).. Dad, I'm going to be home lots, you know that.
Dad - Everynight before I go to bed, I'm going to worry about you.
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Needless to say, I'm a bit of a wreck right now.
All of my friends who are leaving/moving out for school, further from home than I am, I realize are in less of a sad situation than I.
Their parents seem to all have someone else, like a husband or wife.. another child.
I realize that I'm all my dad has in this lonely house.
And what am I doing? I'm leaving him.
I know that it was bound to happen at some point - but I feel now as though it is too soon for him to handle.
He even said so himself, "I'm not going to be able to handle this".
Oh life....
Sigh.
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Sometimes life can be scary, but you do have to do what is best for you. He will understand eventually. If he didn't, he wouldn't have turend you into the strong young woman you are today.
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