dee19

I hate dreams. They give you everything you want in life and then take them away the minute you wake up. I have this friend who I had a crush on in high school, and when high school ended for me I lost touch with her cause she was two grades below me. So this past December I happened to run into her at a local store and we started hanging out again. And low and behold that stupid crush came over me again. Well she had a bofriend at the time and so I kept it all to myself and then he dumped her. I told her how I felt and well she just thinks of me as a friend. So I have the understanding that it is better to have her as a friend cause we hang out all the time and what not. But last night I had a series of dreams which were about her and she told me how she wanted to be with me basicly everything I ever wanted to happen with her happened in this dream. Which sucks cause before last night I was fine, I was back to being just her friend not that jackass who had a crush on her back in high school. I was I could call her and talk to her now but she's on a cruise and her phone won't get signal in the middle of the ocean. I know it's stupid, just because I had a dream about her and I being together doesn't mean anything. I hate this feeling. Ah fuck I'm sure I'll be fine by the end of the day lol.