dedlyniteshade

All my true friends for most part are guys always have been, but i can't put into words how good it feels to actually know an awesome chick thats going through a similar situation and i can talk to her about it! gah i love SG!! my friend on facebook posted this as a status yesterday....."Every once in a while we may fall on our faces, but we insist on doing what we want" this quote holds more truth than most care to admit to!!! I remember in past when i worked at bar and would counsel my lil barflies and theyd listen to my stories as well and i was going through something trivial of the heart per say and i asked for advice and my friend at bar said "mallory you dont want advice you want back up! i said huh??? and they said *you already know in back of head what youre gonna do, you just want a few people to tell you its ok it makes you feel more justified! and ya know what? THAT WAS TRUE!!! My life is repetition, like an on going cycle, months of putting everything and everyone else first and pretty much running myself into the ground head first and then all of the sudden i find something i want, or need even if its a HUGE risk or something thats doomed to hurt or help me later I will throw in my lil *saint* towel and do what ever it takes to get it because the pursuit of happiness is a journey i often give up on and im not getting any younger, i figure ill grow up when im 30 or so, i want to live and have fun and feel ALIVE and if i dont harm anyone in the process i say fuck it , IM ALL IN! this life is so short and so many times ive come to cutting it way shorter and again and again ive been given 2nd , 3rd (so forth ) chances and i never take advantage and live it up! im ready to live now im ready to turn tears and rage into smiles and laughter so the rest of the world can suck it i guess lmao... love youse all