dedlyniteshade

had horrible extremely vivid nightmare about a friend i care for so very deeply that is SOOO close to coming home from overseas (cant wait to give the most epic hug in human history!!!) all day ive been a \bit on edge, i tell myself i havent heard from him because internets down , he's busy, or something, but when my gut tells me something bad has happened i never know who its happened to and i pray PRAY hes ok everytime a lil red marker goes up on the left of my facebook screen under new message i quickly click it in hopes of good news, but its a random friend or something everytime then i get this acidity rising through my chest that feels like a stranglehold deathgrip around that of which is my very heart! yes yes i realize i seem over dramatic right now, but everytime ive dreamed of something like i did last night(the order of it the music playing everything ect) it seems to bring bad im keeping positive thoughts or trying too, watching steelers game had to turn off news cuz afghanistan attacks were all that were being discussed and it makes me want to just bawl right now!