dedlyniteshade

i HATE how attatched i get to everything! not just people, but things... i love change when im aware of it or i have something to do with it, and sometimes its ok the other way around but one thing i ABSOLUTELY hate about myself is (i.e) if i talk to same person everyday for a month or get used to seeing same person/people for months or weeks and all of a sudden they're gone or something i feel so broken and it makes me feel weak , sad and alone. Ive always been nostalgic but this has gotten worse with age and it probably has somethin to do with being alone so much, "hermit disease, " feb. i had nothing but exciting adventures and had a really close friend i saw or atleast talked to everyday, and march it all ended, pals deployed and close friend just went POOF! so march and april i was in a downward spiral of sad and self loathing trapped by the white walls of my home... i know itll get better soon, i just hate getting stuck in this slump of solitude.... mehhhhhhhhhh