dedlyniteshade

last night while sitting on couch alone , i broke down and just once i started i couldnt stop lol i swear i looked like i should've been quarantined as bad as my eys looked, i decided i had too many things i was dwelling on, too many things festering and eating away at me. I decided to get the balls and finally let someone know how they made me feel , and how everyday i wondered why i didnt hear from them or see them anymore and how it hurt me so. Needless to say i didnt like the answer not believe it but "alas, im relieved i no longer have to sit late at night holding my cell and deleting txts too scared to send. Ya win some ya lose some, i used to be the strongest person ever, something happened to me along the way and i think instead of marriage making me stronger it weakened me not in a bad way, just i was used to being with someone who needed my help to cope with things and help with stress and such, my husband never stresses, never has a problem, and never gets scared or sad unless its about my health, so there fore ive discovered im onlly strong when im helping the weak