what a completely fucked up day... nick is STILL asleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i tried to wake em but NOOO....so im by meself once again, arguing with myself on whether i can handle this "pre -funeral setting-up for my friend... its looking like a "no i cant handle it right now"i feel like a dick for not going but i just cant take it right now
(I appreciate your encouraging words on my blog - perhaps we are getting good at propping each other up)