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Monday Apr 05, 2004

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As I am sure most of you are aware, today marks the tenth anniversary of Kurt Cobain's suicide. As I hold Nirvana's music particularly close to my heart, I am going to write one of those wonderful introspective pieces that shed light on my inner self.

If anyone does not wish to hear about Nirvana or Kurt Cobain, then fuck off; don't read my journal. Posters of negative comments will be punished by a flaming that will rival the wrath of god.

When I was ten yers old I became conscious of Nirvana. I heard the secret track from the No Alternative compilation, alternatingly titled "Verse Chorus Verse" and "Sappy," on the radio. It was around this time that Kurt died. I was saddened by it, but, at the time, it did not really effect me all that much.

That year for Christmas, I asked for and recieved "Nirvana Live: Unplugged In New York." This was really the first record I ever owned; before that I had listened to my father's Creedence Clearwater Revival records and the Aerosmith and Weird Al tapes that were circulating among my friends at the time.

Simply speaking, Unplugged blew my mind. I found a depth of songwriting in that record that I had never heard before. It was intimate and personal, and for the first time I found lyrics I could relate to. All the other music I listened to was fun; this record was the first I could describe as being
good.

Soon after I heard "Nevermind" for the first time. In it I found the same personal music, but this time it was loud, fast and full of this energy. It was the perfect soundtrack for a suburban youth, and the first music I could relate to. I left the Aerosmith behind and never looked back.

Nirvana was the first band to really affect me; they started my love affair with music that continues to this day. Aside from that, Nirvana was the first band to expose me to the ethics and ideals of punk rock, ideals that I have since carried with me everywhere. It was from Nirvana that I first heard about punk, and it was easy to make the jump from Nirvana to Green Day and The Offspring, who at the time and at my age age were considered punk as fuck.

The older I have gotten, the more I appreciate Nirvana's music. "In Utero" is, so far, my favorite record of all time.
No matter where I go and what new music I am into, I always go back to Nirvana. Their music is an essential part of my youth, and without them, the Deck you all know and love today would not be around.

I come not to dietize Kurt, but to pay my respects. He was not a martyr. In fact, he was a sad man living in a great deal of pain, and his death ws a crime, not against the music world, but against his family. But his music affected me in a great way, and for that I thank him, and wish him the peace in death that he never found in life.

Kurt, Dave, Kris, Chad, Dale, Dave, and anyone else I may have missed, thanks for the music, it meant a lot to me.

Current Music: Nirvana- "Even In His Youth"


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scopitone6248:
We are indeed awesome with our unmatched cat ryhmin' skillz!!!111`1`

About Nirvana...a couple weeks ago I was on a massive Kurt kick and listened to them every time I was in the car. I was a freshman when Grunge Zero* happened and had moved onto angst filled NIN and KMFDM by then. It was only a couple days after that I began to realize what no more Nirvana would mean...



*I just gave birth to that Ground Zero spoof of a term. Mojo, here I come!
Apr 5, 2004
thehedgehog:
i freely admit to liking diet soda. i got over the shame somewhere along the line. almost.

i can't say i have a wholly positive or negative opinion of nirvana - it's just relatively different for me since i was about 16 when bleach came out, 17 when nevermind hit the stands.

being the lil' skater punk dweeb i was most of my friends and i loved bleach. negative creep rocked. this was when skateboarding was still really, really lame and just not something you did if you ever had a hope in hell of kissing a girl.

by junior year teen spirit had put everything previously below the surface up for grabs to anyone, and i had lame cheerleaders and guys that formerly wanted to kick my ass asking me what kind of music i liked. everyone asked if we liked nirvana then we must like perl jam, so where were our flannel shirts. it totally changed the playing field of our high school where we stood alongside all the popular kids. and it totally freaked us out.

it wasn't so much the music i grew up with as the music they released me out into the world with. by the time unplugged came out i'd just been out of school for maybe six months. lots of house parties. my first ice luge. etc.

it still seems to odd to me when you look at someone who's 16 now and has zero musical boundaries. they can like britney and nin in the same breath and it doesn't bother anyone a wink. that was so not the case before nirvana. their success pretty much forced everyone i knew at the time to reevaluate themselves musically in some part. the easy way out was to presumably stop liking them since they'd "gone mainstream" (as if they had the option), but it proved nearly impossible for anyone to do. because they had the frusterating distinction of writing some dang decent lil' tunes on top of all the rest.
Apr 5, 2004

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