Friday Sep 24, 2004

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I usually dont post this late but... I had to get it off my chest.

Pictures... There is a reason why i hate them soooo much. Sure someone says oh ur cute or nice pic...But you always wonder if they are telling the truth. Then there is always the dickhead or bitch(pardon the language) who just says oh damn you are FUCKING ugly. or as Howard Stern says Fugly(Fucking Ugly)... Well tonight i was called Fugly. I never been called Fugly before and u know what...It hurt. Hurt like hell...

It started simply in the fact someone wanted to see how I look so i sent them a pic. of course that person sent it to someone else who went and told me Exactly how bad I looked. Even called me the standard Celebrity LOOK-alikemad Now I will debate this for the rest of the evening and probably not even go to SG Great adventure because of my self esteem and how people perceive me....

I hate how I look and if i could I would change it. To all those who wonder why I dont post pics of myself, WELL NOW YOU KNow. And No, Iwont be posting any for awhile.

To all...becareful what you say to someone about their appearance. They may laugh and joke and it may not bother them but to others it can really hurt them.

To the mockers and just fucked up logic ones...KARMA IS A BITCHmad


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tryst:
don't worry about it. when you realize how meaningless appearances actually are, you'll have something on everyone else. I'm on a mission to transcend the physical. I believe it is possible, but it's certainly not easy. I want to train myself to not be attracted to anyone. I want to redefine beauty. I want stamp out this cultural imposed idea of beauty that's been implanted in my head. Or ANY idea of beauty really. I hate it. But, it's really hard for me to turn the corner, run into a tall guy with big brown eyes and not immediately think -- he's attractive -- . I think that may never go away. But maybe I can teach myself to see beauty as art only. one dimensional until porven otherwise. who knows. what am I talking about? biggrin
drakonos:
Not assuming anything, but quasi_sean has a point.. theres usually two sides to everything.

But if perchance, there isnt a negative role on your part, Decept, then I wouldnt let it bother me so much.. which in turn though, if it bothers you this much, then maybe you Did do something to recieve whatever was said or done to you.

- J.

Edit - the thing that gets me is, if its Karma youre pointing to, then maybe you said something or done something that made them reply harshly. Cuz Karma comes back to you, ya know? Just somehting I remmbered while re-reading your entry.

[Edited on Sep 26, 2004 4:45AM]

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