deceptiviewfilm

OK, I thought I wasnt going to add another journal for today since many dont read them but I've changed my mind...

Depression...it can be from feeling blue to full blown why even do anything.
Maybe its from loneliness, maybe its from lack of accomplishment, maybe its from all of the above or none of the above....I dont know...well I think Iknow I'm just not ready to share that with others.

I get depressed all the time, too often it seems.

So I sit here at work, alone feeling unappreciated and lost.

Today I heard the woman I care deeply for say she is dropping her class because she feels its a waste of time but to me it seems she isnt ready to handle what was required.

I also realized that No matter what someone says to you whether it be a guy or a woman, once you do the exchange of pictures its never the same.
Now I know i'm not a hunk or hottie or anything but it does hurt when they blow you off because ur not up to their standards. Even had it happen on SG. So for now on No pics of me at all ever. Maybe after I trust someone i will show them the real A.W. Quinn