decembermarie

Sorry I haven't been as active as usual. I'm going through a horrible breakup. It's the first serious thing since Jesse...over a year ago. One of my friends is the catalyst in this breakup. She wanted Brian from the start. She told me she had a crush on him but I didn't think she'd do anything about it. He swore he only loved me. Things between her and I got worse. He got defensive cuz she's one of his friends as well though he didn't know her like me and my other friends did...we knew how she was. He thought I didn't trust him, which wasn't true. I told him repeatedly I trusted him. He never gave me a reason not to. He showed love and affection for me, even in front of her. But she manipulated him and turned him against me more and more until it turned into a fight, he broke up with me, she confessed her feelings to him and made out with him. HE still swore he didn't want her. He said he was taking a break from dating to work on himself. Yet he's cut me out of his life and they spend every second together. So many amazing memories...I miss him so much. I know I deserve better but this pain is killing me.