decayingyouth

Well, my Ex-friend (Jess) just called me at 9:30pm. I was happy to hear from her. The good news is shes happy and thinks this is the best thing since sliced cheese. By this I mean the Break up. Actually the main reason she called was to tell me that its fine that I wait around her apartment while my car gets looked at. As it stands right now Im planning on torturing my self tomorrow, jess and me will hang out tomorrow after she gets out of work. I know that hanging out with her right now is kind of like hanging out with the boogieman but thats fine because I really miss her. My new goal is to make Friends (I know I have that recipe somewhere). I dont have a really job, so I dont interact with any people my age. I only have one class on campus, so theres not much interaction there either. So I need to go out in public and try to be charming. I wonder if I could just pay people to be my friend.
Have you ever just felt like disappearing? Thats how I feel right now. I just want to be gone, I doubt Ill be missed by many (Sarah I know youd miss me). On a slightly less depression note, guess what I almost saw yesterday. Some middle aged chick almost ran down a poor old crossing guard. It was all crazy like, how could you miss the red stop sign, neon orange vest and beer belly (that is if old guys stomachs are call that). On the plus side the kid was safe, but the crossing guard was about feet away from being retired. Sweet dreams to you all.