decayingyouth

While tonight was interesting! I want to my beloved girlfriends apartment and was waiting for her to arrive home. Well she was late like normal but this time she didnt call, so I kind of known something was up. Today at work, she talked to some people that said they saw me with my very good friend and ex-friend. Ill admit I openly choose to omit the fact that I sent time with her. Mind you I was with another friend the entire time I was with my ex-girlfriend. So my girlfriend was all freaked out and pissed at me. I be honest I fucked up but wow. Any way what was the point of this, ok think I remember now. Now my girlfriend want to really think were the relationship is going. Shes 28 going on 29 and Im 22. She want a house, a family, and to be living in PA with her family. She does mind that I would have to move away for my family, she doesnt really like them very much. Sometimes I wonder if the relationship will last, I feel like Im giving everything to this relationship and Im getting nothing back in return. There were a few things I wanted to do this summer Ive done none of them. Why because its not good for her schedule. I guess what the real kicker for this whole augment was my girlfriend was told I was spotted with my ex-girlfriend last week, which isnt true but she wont believe me. Maybe Im just whining. I just hope who ever is reading this has a less conflicting love life then me.