decayingyouth

I walked on the beach the other day. It wasnt as warm as I remember the beach to be. It may have something to do with the fact that its December in Maine but Im not sure. A walked the beach with out leaving footprints. That simple act of not leaving a trace of were Ive been, amazed me. The beach should freeze more often....
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I have a nipple piercing that I can see through; for those that must know its a 6 gauge flared tunnel. I find my self looking through this piercing, hoping that its a window to another world. A world better then mine, a world Id rather be in. I look through this window hoping to find a happy me, a me that will have someone...
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Well, I guess you shouldnt count your eggs before there hatched. All it does it disappoint you. The good week I had is still good, that wont change. The freely thought happy thoughts I believe are gone and they may not return for some time.
I acted hastily and uncharacteristically, now I have nothing but a gaping hole.
Sometimes I just wish I could fade...
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I am having a really good week. Im thinking happy thoughts and Im thinking them willingly, how great and novel is that. If your reading this, my thoughts go out to you and I hope your life is going well.

I think I may be broken.
That could be the reason why I feel so alone
I feel like hiding under my bed.
Wasting away my day in darkness and solitude, which is how I feel about most days anyway.

HAPPY TURKEY DAY.

Another eventful Turkey day is came and gone, and I somehow manage to accomplish nothing. I had the honor of going out to a holiday film with my Family, how great is that. Me and my Folks went to see Christmas with the kranks. The Movie was horrible; I cant believe that I spent $8 dollars to get in. The movie seemed...
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Im a little worried this morning. I may see the Pretty Girl again (by may I mean I Hope) and Im afraid Ill say something stupid. Its odd to be worried about such small things but I am worried.

I had a Good day. Class was cancelled and because of the lack of class I meet a really pretty girl. Sometime meeting someone can be the best feeling in the world. I also got a chance to hang out my with my bestest friendest tonight.

So I had a pretty messed up evening. This friend of my, that just happens to be an ex-girlfriend of my 7 years ago called me to hang out. So I thought that could be fun, after all I need more friends. Before this evening I kind of thought see was interested in me in a boy friend kind of way, which was a little...
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I feel sad and lonely. I know I could call people but I needed to do homework. I avoid the homework by cleaning up the kitchen. Some times I wonder what is the point of sleeping, when youre sleeping alone. I need something to look forward to in my life.

Well, my Ex-friend (Jess) just called me at 9:30pm. I was happy to hear from her. The good news is shes happy and thinks this is the best thing since sliced cheese. By this I mean the Break up. Actually the main reason she called was to tell me that its fine that I wait around her apartment while my car gets looked at. As...
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