deathtoyourmom

i'm at work.

just thought i'd holla.

went to see Deny Everything at Charlie's Kitchen last night and i'm still exhausted. the lead singer still owes me a drink for designing his site. check them out the next time they play live, they are mad talented.

3 more days till florida. can't wait.

so i uploaded the rest of the pics. i sent a couple along with my suicidegirls application. wish me luck!

i gave momo permission to put these on the mistress mayhem site, so if nothing happens, i can still work with her on more shoots. i want to fuck around with combining butoh with porn. it'd probably be really gruesome but awesome none the less....
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i just uploaded a couple pics from my most current shoot with momo; i'll put the rest up tomorrow.

i am a sleepy samurai with a big day of work ahead of me.

i am also kinda worried about slo, he's acting weird, which will propbably make me lose this happy sleepiness. but, guys are guys, great and awesome, but ultimately replaceable if need be...
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grr. one of my cats, leonard, just popped the space bar off of this keyboard. so i've just spent half an hour trying to pop the thing back into place. >sigh< why are macs so complicated?

so yesterday, slo and i rode our choppers around boston and caused general mayhem. i think the best part was when i tried to get us lost in harvard...
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hehe. warsoul, you thought the last entry was bizarre, here's a nice graphic one for ya. or anyone.

first, some background info: i'm bipolar, so half the time i can't sleep. when i can sleep, i either have incredibly bad nightmares or wake up to a charleyhorse in my calf. if you've ever looked at the photography of joelpeter witkin, those are what my...
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so there was no shoot tonight. momo said its too hot and i'd melt under the lights.

"but i'm a MIAMI girl!" i said, but the answer was still no.

its the same deal when my mom used to ground me, except today it was, "alright sammo, you're going back to your castle** WITHOUT YOUR BONDAGE!!" >sigh< it's fun being a grownup. well, sorta.

i'm...
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had a nice, albeit drunken talk with momo.

things seem good, provided we don't get arrested

pics should be up tomorrow evening, when i send out my application.

wish me luck!!

things are good again.

olga, our polish houseguest cooked a whole mess of food for her going away party and we all just hung out as a "family" and drank a lot of wine and laughed. i now have a place to stay in warsaw if i'm ever in the area.

slo came by yesterday and we had a nice time hanging out.

i have...
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ok so here's another rant.

i fail to comprehend exactly why everyone i know has suddenly decided to turn to me as the resident shoulder to cry on.

i get to scul yesterday, with max in tow as the luminous Lord Manwhore, ready to just sit back and have a good time. first person that comes up to me:

"hey sammo...i've had a horrible week,...
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i just had a darwin moment.

anna came in and asked if i had stuff in the dryer and i said yes. then she brandished a lighter and i freaked out. i thought i had thoroughly checked my pockets before putting the stuff in.

i suck!

things are a lot better.

i don't feel horrible and overanalytical anymore, and was very relieved that this week went by relatively fast.

we've got a very posi shoot tomorrow; momo and i are building a harem tent for the visiting model and then we're chopping to ride with scul. then slo gets out of camp on sunday. i'mma make him to go the forest...
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so yet another day of being the pillar of strength. sometimes, i really like being there for my friends, and just listening, as they do the same for me. but it's so emotionally tiring. like i just (again) wanted to go home after work and do my laundry, clean the room, and veg. but i had to go see momo, because she's like my second...
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