deathtoforls

Just awoke from approx 20 hours sleep, fragmented sleep, but feeling much better. This past week has been toilsome and profoundly depressing yet highly irritating. I'm starting to wonder if SSRI's might not be a swell idea for a brief period. My initial thoughts after my father died were that I should be feeling massive amounts of anguish, but almost a month later I think maybe these feelings are more profound than they should be. I've made no progress whatsoever emotionally, and seem to find contentment in that. So, I have an appointment with the head doctor on the 27th, I think I'll ask for the hookup then. Valium for anxiety, of course my narcolepsy meds refilled Provigil and Adderall, and maybe some Lexapro on the side. Yes, a cocktail of chemicals for my lacking mental state. If pills wont fix me, then I suppose I'm doomed to lead a life of psychotic ups and downs. I'm exhausted and have nothing much to say, just couldnt bring myself to see that garbage I had previously written every fuckin time I opened up SG. Hope all is well with the rest of you.