deathtoforls

hmm....I really dont sleep anymore. I am chronically exhausted yet convinced to sleep would be wasting precious time. Fuck sleep and food...I might as well be a robot. I'm terrified of waking up and finding myself 50 years old with no worthwhile memories. If only speed were a healthy habit, I'd be all over it. The ol Adderall for narcolepsy has reached worthless status. Not only does it fail to keep my narcoleptic ass awake, the thrill is gone. Used to be so fun to pop my wee orange pills of productivity. At this point, 10 years after starting down the slippery slope of prescription speed addiction, I am worn out on it. It gives me headaches and only serves to put me in a crappy mood as soon as the initial rush has worn off...so I recently went 2 weeks without taking it, and all I did was sleep. I lead such a glam and exciting life...you know there's a problem when sleep is the highlight of your day. If only I wasnt such a lazy bones