When you're lost and don't know where you're going...
Can you actually get anywhere? Or do you simply fall victim to the void, a chasm of empty, mindless, automatons that may as well not exist. I feel the void right now...in every sense of the word.
I used to be positive, optomistic, unfailingly hopeful with a touch of cynicism. At this point, I need to be medicated. I hate depression. It's wrecking my immune system. I'm sick again, at home sniffling my way through the day. My place is a wreck, I have a to do list 5 miles long, all I want to do is sleep. Forever. I have no money to refill my meds, and honestly, if I died this afternoon, it wouldn't really bother me. Everything feels like a chore right now. Even getting out of bed to pee seems like climbing a fucking mountain.I'm going nowhere extraordinarily quickly and it scares me shitless.
Can you actually get anywhere? Or do you simply fall victim to the void, a chasm of empty, mindless, automatons that may as well not exist. I feel the void right now...in every sense of the word.
I used to be positive, optomistic, unfailingly hopeful with a touch of cynicism. At this point, I need to be medicated. I hate depression. It's wrecking my immune system. I'm sick again, at home sniffling my way through the day. My place is a wreck, I have a to do list 5 miles long, all I want to do is sleep. Forever. I have no money to refill my meds, and honestly, if I died this afternoon, it wouldn't really bother me. Everything feels like a chore right now. Even getting out of bed to pee seems like climbing a fucking mountain.I'm going nowhere extraordinarily quickly and it scares me shitless.
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[I've been gone for a while; I have to catch up]