My car might be fixed today. The poor thing has been beaten to shit twice over now and is finally dying. Maybe I will just try toget a new one.
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Violently is going to be in SD this weekend. I hope I get the chance to meet her. She needs hugs, so if your reading this, go give her your love.
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A friend of mine has this book, "Why bad things happen to good people." I have never read it though. I always have just assumed that the extent to the level of pain you can feel is mirrored by the extent of happiness you can feel. You just have to hang in there while the bad shit goes away for the good shit to happen.
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So I found out two interesting things about work situations this week. I might be getting the apprentice design position with EQ2 that I applied for a while ago after all. Of course, it could be just a carrot dangling in front of my face to keep me at my job. The other thing is my friends husband is the senior lead artist for another game that is being made. She called me to let me know they are hiring right now and that she can hook it up. I will probably go kick it with her this week and find out what exactly they are hiring for.
Oh actually I lied, there was more wierd work shit going on. We just picked up Matrix online, and got the rights to rather large comic company too. With Matrix online there will be 6 people in the states doing support on it, and 25 in India. Depending on if I can pick up the game fast enough I might be going to India to train people. Yay for India, the land of the craziest fucking drivers on earth.
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Ever have haunting dreams? I almost never dream. Today I dreamt of my dog though. It was a basic dream. Just petting her and putting her out side. It was raining but she went out like a good doggy anyways.
I miss my dog more then I can express.
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An old poem,
Drifting through an insomniatic night,
and I pondered over your old plight.
and I wondered, dreamily,
how your doing in this insanity.
Did she make it? does she live?
Does she breath, does she forgive?
Did she find happiness in the night,
or did she find it in the light?
Does she still release scornful sighs.
Do the tears trickle, if not in her eyes?
Have you found the bottom of your hole,
Was it solid enough for you to grow?
Have you climbed out, have you forgotten?
Have you found the things that are rotten?
Did you even find the smallest joy,
Did you find a wholesome boy?
Do they exsist, or do they lie,
Perhaps they exsist to make you cry?
Do you still drift through the night,
and with every breath still try to fight.
Can your eyes still sparkle like I have seen,
or maybe that was all just in a dream.
But your laughter rolls with quirky quips.
as a melody, bubbling from your lips.
whose softness I have gazed upon,
and adored, if only breifly from nights shore.
once I did wonder what would have been,
If I kissed you gently, and ignored your sin.
and I have pondered on your game,
but wished you well, all the same.
for one hearts joy I wish to come to pass,
would be for yours to come true at long last.
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Side note, there is beauty in every storm life throws.
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Violently is going to be in SD this weekend. I hope I get the chance to meet her. She needs hugs, so if your reading this, go give her your love.
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A friend of mine has this book, "Why bad things happen to good people." I have never read it though. I always have just assumed that the extent to the level of pain you can feel is mirrored by the extent of happiness you can feel. You just have to hang in there while the bad shit goes away for the good shit to happen.
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So I found out two interesting things about work situations this week. I might be getting the apprentice design position with EQ2 that I applied for a while ago after all. Of course, it could be just a carrot dangling in front of my face to keep me at my job. The other thing is my friends husband is the senior lead artist for another game that is being made. She called me to let me know they are hiring right now and that she can hook it up. I will probably go kick it with her this week and find out what exactly they are hiring for.
Oh actually I lied, there was more wierd work shit going on. We just picked up Matrix online, and got the rights to rather large comic company too. With Matrix online there will be 6 people in the states doing support on it, and 25 in India. Depending on if I can pick up the game fast enough I might be going to India to train people. Yay for India, the land of the craziest fucking drivers on earth.
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Ever have haunting dreams? I almost never dream. Today I dreamt of my dog though. It was a basic dream. Just petting her and putting her out side. It was raining but she went out like a good doggy anyways.
I miss my dog more then I can express.
---
An old poem,
Drifting through an insomniatic night,
and I pondered over your old plight.
and I wondered, dreamily,
how your doing in this insanity.
Did she make it? does she live?
Does she breath, does she forgive?
Did she find happiness in the night,
or did she find it in the light?
Does she still release scornful sighs.
Do the tears trickle, if not in her eyes?
Have you found the bottom of your hole,
Was it solid enough for you to grow?
Have you climbed out, have you forgotten?
Have you found the things that are rotten?
Did you even find the smallest joy,
Did you find a wholesome boy?
Do they exsist, or do they lie,
Perhaps they exsist to make you cry?
Do you still drift through the night,
and with every breath still try to fight.
Can your eyes still sparkle like I have seen,
or maybe that was all just in a dream.
But your laughter rolls with quirky quips.
as a melody, bubbling from your lips.
whose softness I have gazed upon,
and adored, if only breifly from nights shore.
once I did wonder what would have been,
If I kissed you gently, and ignored your sin.
and I have pondered on your game,
but wished you well, all the same.
for one hearts joy I wish to come to pass,
would be for yours to come true at long last.
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Side note, there is beauty in every storm life throws.
Sooo.. Went drinking. Night started off slow with a shit ton of people from work, peoples started leaving so we were all ready to hit the town when, due to us kicking it until 4:30 am last night, my friend Jeff wanted to go home. well 4:30 am, and he gets up at 6am for work.. Kind of a let down, but not everyone is has the stanima to ignore sleep for days on end. Anyways, so I dropped by a place called the whistle stop with my roommate, and my friend preston. Swing night, band = rating 4 of 10. People dancing = rating 3 of 10. 15 minutes later we are at shooters.
Now my friend Preston used to always hit up shooters on saturdays for Sabbat. He hasn't been in a long long time due to a nasty DUI(Don't drink and drive, its bad) Tonight was his reunion with his home. I have not seen him that drunk in a very, very, long time. Not since he got the boot from the company party for.. yeah.. back to the story. Its amazing how alcohol can turn an intelligent, creative but somewhat quite guy into a loud, out going charismatic fellow.
The change was quite drastic. Like superman, he jumped in the phone booth and came out a whole different person. Of course, introducing your self as Awesome all night kind of helps to build the second personality. "Hi, I'm awesome, who are you?".
I also had a long chat with Jesus about various religions. He was pretty anti-mormon, but did fully support any crusade the would reduce the population on our planet. A nice fellow he was.
Well its 3:30, and I have to be at work at 7am. Going out to eat with the bosses and stuff after. All you can eat Brazilian Beef house. It will be "interesting" to say the least.
P.S. Oddly enough, I got quite buzzed tonight for about 45 minutes. All I had was 4 shots of jagger and 2 long islands. I think my tolerance is starting to go down. Maybe now I can get drunk.