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Three day weekend coming up. Just have to make it through one more night.

Going to see a martial arts and chinese ballet show tonight.

After that, its most likely on to twiggy's for a local chick who is playing there. Her music is not my style, but she has a nice voice and deserves some support. Rock on girl.

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Ever spend all your spare cash to send someone flowers and have them not really appreciate them?

One less flower sender in the world now.

I knew buying non-potted flowers was bad.. tongue SCREW THE COWS SAVE THE PLANTS!!
wtf:
Damn, that really sucks. Know how many chick would really appreciate them? Next time send one of those single shoes you see on the side of the road.
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Not much to update yet.

Gears are turning, the world is burning, and raging fire sweeps across the land.

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deathhippie:
Uh huh, I see how it is.. Ditching me already.. Ptthh.!!! Thanks for the reinvite though heehe.
bigsisoffive29:
kiss you know it was all too early to try and mess with anything technical! lol I'm surprised I didn't delete my whole profile! lol

the ballet/martial art demo sounds interesting. Hope you have a great time. And goodluck with the new girl! That should be fun. wink

Sorry your friend didn't make it out to visit. I'm sure they would've preferred to be here rather than in that hellish heat!

Frisco huh? I can't imagine living up there. I love to visit, but I don't think I'd enjoy living there permanently. Too cold for me. lol San Diego really is paradise in my eyes anyway. I know....so why would I leave it to go to Az? Change....it's all about change.

Yeah, 35k for a house....even though it is in the pit of hell..it's still 35k! Plus.....depending where you are....your only a matter of hours away from here by car, and 45 minutes by plane! Very tempting.
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what I want. An ode to me.

I want dark smiles, and glittering eyes. Small notes, and comfortable sighs. Patience that lasts through out the night, and craziness that makes you want to fight. A person who can read my words and understand, someone who is innocent and yet also damned. Softfingers and lucious lips, a wryly mind with viscous quips. I want a girl...
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tryphyna:
i think this is a beautiful "ode to self" - you write beautifully...
daemontia:
hair and cysts don't sound too appealing in the same sentence haha

thank you <3

i want a different background color. i wish i had a house and money so i could buy stuff like paint or art supplies and be cool.

btw, pretty words indeed
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what I want. An ode to me. wink

I want dark smiles, and glittering eyes. Small notes, and comfortable sighs. Patience that lasts through out the night, and craziness that makes you want to fight. A person who can read my words and understand, someone who is innocent and yet also damned. Softfingers and lucious lips, a wryly mind with viscous quips. I want a girl...
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What do you peeps think.

To early to start seeing someone?
To early to start dating someone?

For random passerby's reading this. this is month 3 after a 6 year relationship.
wtf:
There is no right or wrong time. You always have to stop and think "Is this person just a rebound sex-type-fling" in the back of your mind. But then again...... are you looking for another 6 year relationship? the end all be all "THE" relationship? Friends? or just want to let it go with the flow and see where it takes you as long as you are having fun and it gets your mind off the x? I'd say you've been miserable long enough.... the world is full of misery and miserable people.... do what you can to be happy.... wink

WARNING: sometimes the heart hurts when stretching and growing. Ohhh yeah it feels good at first but it tends to open old wounds you thought were healed over. Just dont pick the scabs.
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An old poem I came across.

Pain
oh so sweet
the thread of life
to which so many cling
that bead of light
guiding us
drawing us on
bring us to our knees
in worship of a false god
crying out for it to stop or continue?
no one truly knows
until they have passed beyond
but then they no longer care
for they can...
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itzjusme:
ummmmmm........no. not even close. confused are you kidding? so fucking broke. feel like crap about myself. that is however what i am working towards though. i am not one to give up easily.
wtf:
Pain let's us know we are alive doesn't it?
Then there is pleasure that comes from the absence of pain. Like damn... didn't even know that my shin, neck, forearm, elbow, na, na, na felt good before I fell off that building. But now that I have good drugs... ahhhhhhh.

It's sick but I kinda like pain that makes my mouth water. Does that even qualify? Mouth watering pain...... mmmmm. Key lime pain..... shocked
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Ever write crazy things and send em to someone, then think, that might have been a bad idea?

I always do that crap. You people ever recieve things like that? If so, is this a bad flaw, or a really bad flaw?
wtf:
Really
bad...
at least if you said them...
they could be misconstrued.
if it's in print
you are screwed!

Nah.... here and now it is how you feel...... days.. months and years later. We will all look like dorks or kings. my opinion.
wtf:
Feelings are cool huh? That's why we are here afterall. For a moment I thought maybe me and x had a 2nd chance. The more details come out about fling-man...(Because of his prodding) the more x gets hung up... the less I think we have a chance to move forward. Should I tell him no more info... for his own good and let him steam? walking away might be hte only way.... taking 2 roads might lead to the same destination... which has the better scenery? Bah, is it possible to be happy being miserable? Screw that!
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Finally got paid, yay, now I get paid again on tuesday, thursday, an friday this week. Looks Like I can pay my bank back and cover rent, will be nice to be back in normal swing again. (yes, thats 4 checks total I was missing).

My friend Katie is going to be out from Arizona tomorrow. Its going to be awesome. I always miss her,...
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samanthakayne:
oh, there were a shitload of pics, i just can't figure out if i want them posted or not blush biggrin

um, can i have one of your checks? i only get one a month... frown

samanthakayne:
now, what's wrong with a good salad here and again, eh? and no... not a taco salad. tongue
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-Wanted-

Smart girl who can stand up for herself.
Cute, but no ego please.
Boots perfered, but are optional.

itzjusme:
you have a wanted ad!! shocked true that. kiss egos suck blackeyed
samanthakayne:
thanks... i'm pretty good, just one of those things, you know? the fucking heat here doesn't help. i can't remember the last time i ate something besides ice cream or sugar snap peas without feeling sick or slept without waking up in a pool of sweat. okay, it's been like, less than a week, but i felt like complaning, lol.

i like you wanted ad. i want to see it made into a wanted-type poster with photo and ever-stuff. wink
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short n sweet

Fuck my job.

I work for sony, yay, woo, fuck you! Actually I work for a contractor that works with sony, the deuche bags, yes the used kind, said they gave my check(s) to my lead. so I try to get them now that I have to pay rent today, and what do you know, he has no idea what the fuck...
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itzjusme:
I'm so sorry. That shit is so annoying. I have been through shit like that. AND the last thing you want is to borrow money because it's bad enough that you have to deal with what you already are dealing with...then you have to borrow money...which is embarrassing in itself...and it's not because you don't work hard or anything...I know what you mean. and it's hard with the check thing. sucks. i'm sorry about your bad day. *hugs* to make it better. even though i know it won't straighten it out.
samanthakayne:
yeah, the ministry is kicking my ass. happy camper, i am. biggrin big boots and all. okay, actually i'm not wearing shoes, but you get the drift.

sorry to hear bout the cash flow issue. not much hits harder than running short as an adult, i find. :hugs:
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Working the grave yard shift is starting to take its toll. I actually have to be awake in the day now if I want to do anything. Although it is nice to work through the night, I miss the ability to go out in the peacful time of the day, er night.

I hope everyone keeps on rocking.
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samanthakayne:
went and listened to the ministry (thanks for the heads-up). have to admit i don't think it would have ever occurred to me to go to vh1 to listen, lol. little scary. but 30 secs of each song just ain't enough. i'm gonna go buy it tonight. hell, maybe i'll grab it on my way back from my lunchtime dentist appt...

and moms are def funny... turns out she didn't know that i didn't know it was her. i yelled at him yesterday afternoon 'til he promised to tell her, lol.
samanthakayne:
hey, i'm getting all compulsive about my friend list and since we added each other at the same time, you're on there twice. i'm gonna delete and re-request to even it out, k?