deathbydawn

and what's the point of all of this?

i don't know why it weirds me out, but it does. how can someone like her go on 'dates' with people she doesn't know? i had figured that she would be out with other people while i was gone, but just some dude? it doesn't make sense... it makes me wonder if i have gotten ahead of myself. i mean, really and truly, what is the reason behind all of this?

it is arrogant of me to say this, but if someone is willing to give anyone a chance, do they really deserve my affection? i have a lot to offer, almost all of which is on a very important person type of basis. so why should i lose sleep over an individual who will take a sample of any thing that comes their way?

i guess the more important and prevalent question is.. why am i actually losing sleep over this?..

cause it's three in the morning.

and i am still wondering.