deathbydawn

another day... today it was surprisingly easy to wake up. perhaps it is the new room... or perhaps i am just undergoing a change. i want things to be different for me, i want things to be fulfilling not because i, personally, can be fulfilled with so little substance, but because i have so much to live for that i can't help but be satisfied. i want to be with a woman who understands herself, not just a woman who understands me. i want to work a job that pays for me to live my life to the fullest, a job that doesn't just pay for me to live. i want to do things with myself that realize my full potential, and not just things that keep me occupied... i want a lot, and i talk a lot... but now is the time. after all, thirty is the new twenty, so i'm basically just a dumb kid with high hopes.

23=13

tour will be fun. and also a great opportunity for me. not only do have the chance to begin working with film, even on a simple level, but i think i could have a future in tour management. now's my time to shine, and autokinoton is a band i should get behind. not smoking the devil weed is starting to show, especially to myself. i feel capable, energetic, and clear. i haven't regularly smoked for around six months, and i think my brain is finally starting to wake up again. it's fantastic.

i have errands to run.