hello all!!! it's been fucking forever! i've neglected real blogs for a reason cause i simply hate blabbing about negativity despite my photo pics that seems i'm fine. it's easy to coat...
where do i start.. as i sip my 3rd glass of Absinthe and about to light up a cigarette... also blasting some of my favorite local bands.. MIDNIGHT MOB from NYC and RIVERSIDE ODDS from PA.. give them a listen.. these guys are no joke.. good friends of mine!
so as of January 27 i turned 30
.. i was and wasn't looking forward to it. as they say you should be have game plan by now and financial secured, blah blah blah... i'm not. having great jobs weren't my thing. i partied, still party and music is my life. right now i'm in resurgence of getting back in the game. i never stopped practicing, i let life eat me alive and i'm paying the price. there's nothing more than i want is to live.
my job right now is lame, but more money than i ever made. so i'm trying to use the down time wisely.. like within my pic posts, using my time to get back to drawing. along with that, i've never mentioned i take vocal lessons at a local shop here in Philly. not that i'm insecure about my singing but to learn professionally. and not just death metal or screaming. it's been a great while since i jammed with people so it can be nerve wrecking. but the time is now, i've never had so many connections that i do now because i started working with this podcast 2 years ago. those dudes are great and treat me like family. even though they know my love of music but not technically what i've tried to do vocally on my own.
this might skip a bit cause i dont know.. haha
let's rewind a bit
even before i was about to turn 30 i knew i needed a car. i havent drove in awhile simply because i got rid of a car cause i couldnt get uphold of it and the current job at the time. i got sick of grabbing rides from fellow workers or cabs that would just kill my check anyway
i bought a 2012 for)d focus se hatchback i dont have a proper pic for you because Philly weather has been up and down lately. rain, snow and the so-called blizzard.. so it desperately needs a carwash. it was needed and i am forever grateful making the move to do so! i now have the freedom again to move as freely as i want. (i laugh as i write this cause im reminded of my computer skills or typing skills where i dont have to look at the keyboard) (nerd haha)
as i said this might jumble or might not make sense, let's rewind again: dating
this is where i'm going to open this part for discussion.. (going with my status)
so before i even turned 30 i was monkeying with Tinder. i've already done OkCupid. Yes i know Tinder mainly is to fuck. maybe i'm just a sucker. here's my experience: started talking to this girl. we hit it off cause we are both interested in the macabre and horror movies not so music but still in the same realm. 1st night of meeting, i pick her up in my new car, take her a local bar. find out she's vegan, which is NOT!!!! a problem. had a great time, conversation never stopped, laughed. i also had work the the next day( i get up at 5:30am) she wanted to "cuddle" and once i said i get up for work she said "ew!!" i laughed so that night ended i took her home.
second time we hung out, we went to a different local bar, we both smoke cigarettes so it benefits. had a great time. this time i tried to cuddle but i could not find a parking spot so i had to drop her off because again i had work.
the next fri-sat the snow came (lights up another cig) so she invites me over for a "snowed-in" party which i was cool about. her roommates and friends. i made my there with some beer. i felt awkward as fuck at first but turned some of the people there knew my friends. she eventually made it towards my way, sat next to me, talked, then we went to her room to "cuddle" as she likes to say. no i did not have sex with her. we watched a movie together, kissed and she fell asleep. now comes my dumb move, i left in the middle of the night. dont get me wrong, i am a gentleman despite my exterior, i left early because we just met and i wasnt sure she wanted me to say. turned out: she did. nice guys finish last. it doesn't end there.
so we're still talking. my birthday is approaching. she asked to go out the night before, though i told her when my birthday was, whatever, so in return asked if she'd like to go out that Wednesday(my birthday) which was a yes. awesome. so she's vegan, right. askes me "where do picky eaters like me go to eat" i just laughed. im a little picky because i like to eat healthy. or just chicken. so it didnt matter to me and the person i am, i'd rather satisfy the other than myself, just my nature. we went to a vegan chinese restaurant in town. i didn't mind eating vegan chicken and broccoli. lol. so whatever i paid for dinner. so then we went to the bar in the neighborhood which we can smoke. its actually called "Ray Happy birthday bar" so she tells me its me bday, i take the nastiest shot ever but whatever. in the car there was a conversation that i dont quite rememeber how we got on topic but it escalated to the bar so i tell you what i learned from there. i have no problem in what anyone does in life, no what means i should of known better coming from Tinder. but im spending what is my 30th birthday with a girl that is attractive, probably the most attractive girl ive been with because i dont give myself half the credit, anyway. (lights up another cigarette) so we're at the bar having a good time. i find out theres an app some girls use to be "sugar daddys" i get what it means and as i said i dont care what anyone does in life. it didnt bother me at first nor does it still, just questions. i ended up spending the night at her house watching movies, we made out, but she kept yawning cause she was tired. its not in my nature to force anything. even though when we woke up or she caught the insomnia in me she asked if i slept, i didnt, not much, she wasn't afraid to admit she wast going to give me head. speaking for myself, i look like a caveman or whatever, i am also a gentleman, i am not going engage if you're yawning or want to sleep. you can call me out than that if youd like. i am nothing but honest. which might me be downfall in life. but whatever, i i enjoyed the time that i slept over with her. we eventually woke up late and went to the diner. had late breakfast and from there its been................... i really dont think i did anything wrong.. i guess nice guys really do finish last.
currently... im trying to draw my ass off.. get back in playing music... i miss you all and miss talking you all. sorry i've neglected myself. this is one of the places i forgot i could get it out. and i met and talked to plenty of you! please hit me up, dont be afraid, real message or in the blog <333
