i haven't forgotten you, i've nearly forgotten myself. i am here. just have been more quiet than ever.
these days have been kinda tough and i've neglected the only place i felt ok to express those emotions and i hate to rant.
tomorrow after work i leave for the Dewey Beach Music Conference in Delaware with the podcast crew. this will be my 2nd year going down and it is a well needed get a way!really looking forward to time away from the city, not to mention the Pope visits this weekend and it's just going to be chaos, and also time away from regular faces. there will be bands for 4 days straight but i am mainly looking forward to parking my ass on the beach and just, reeelllaaxxxxx....
hoping this time away is what i need to reset and i know i've left this vague, i just hate sounding like a broken record but it's gotten really old and i'm sick of it.(fear, anxiousness)
i've neglected blogging about life recently especially since my new job but things didn't really seem to "change". i should be happy but i'm not. not sure how i feel. does it take time for things to change after spending so many years in a rut? or i feel maybe it has blurred my out look on things, where as i'm trying to look on the brighter side each and every day.
i still have some packing to do and it's getting late. 5am comes quick! and worry has been wreaking havoc on sleep.
hope you all have been doing well!
i shall return.
