hello all, it has been some time! i've been telling myself to blog but a lot of times i become a victim of the battles of the mind. but i give it a fucking fight! lately i am so damn exhausted and it doesn't help the anxious/downer part of me. it has a lot to do with my realization over the years of how my life has gone, the fight against getting older and completing goals and my new schedule back at my old job(i wont get into, there's too many previous blogs on the negative subject). working overnight into the morning is a terrible schedule. anyone else maybe deal with shift work disorder? or how do you tolerate it?
in good news: the first feed back out of many applications i have submitted. last Thursday i got an email from an employer i have been, in a way, chasing after. RevZilla, they are a shipper and seller of motorcycle parts and gear with an expanding warehouse. they once actually held a building in my neighborhood. through multiple attempts with them, they posted a different type of warehouse job which basically, i think, has my name on it. Outbound Clerk - picking and packing products to be labeled and shipped out.
human resources quickly offered me an interview, which was this past Monday. i had to ask work if i could leave early so i would be able to shower and also i had to take public transportation and i had no idea where and how to get to the place. it is in the Navy Yard here in Philly, basically where all imports come off the boats. i got to the bus stop and the nervous wreck i was, i asked a random woman about the bus and it's stops. thankfully i did because i called the transit hotline beforehand and the bus they told me no longer runs into the Navy Yard. in replacement they have a free Naval Yard Shuttle bus for those who work the stadiums and Navy Yard, i lucked out! it is actually not that far at all. i could most likely ride my bike there.
so i get there. i arrive at their building and call the number that was enclosed in the email, they'll be outside in a sec to let me in. well little did i know they have 2 buildings in this huge Naval Yard. finally a employee was making his way to work and i asked him about it, there i learned the warehouse has it's own building. nice guy, wished me good luck and gave me directions. about a mile in, haha, i can't find the place. the Navy Yard is it's own little city full of warehouses and restaurants. a random number calls my cell phone and it's the lady who i spoke with through the emails! she called my house looking for me, cause i was late obviously and she got my number from my mom. she was very nice and basically told me to stop in my tracks was going to pick me up in her car, haha. luckily as she explained it was no big deal and i wasn't the first one she had picked up that couldn't find the place.
we entered the building and i met 2 gentlemen in this huge kitchen/break area i'm assuming. they were younger than me and not even in anywhere close to what i would call interview apparel. i think i was more dressed up than them! haha! not what i was expecting but it kind of made me at ease. and i think them being younger, in their early 20s, it made me a bit more relaxed and able to communicate with them better. the interview wasn't tough at all and nothing that i couldn't handle, shocked knowing my nervous self. they asked primarily your general questions, though one i wasn't expecting "what's the least you like about __(insert company from resume__)?" i didn't take long to respond because i knew how to respond. basically i said nothing. i'm there to get a job so there was no room for any kind of negativity. after that they explained the hours, benefits and just how the company runs day in, day out. the one gentleman had to depart to return to his duties and the other gave me a tour of the warehouse. it looked simple compared to where i work. their production is almost similar, a picker packs, places it on the conveyor belt to where it gets scanned and labeled and then off to the loader. i work for United Parcel Service, that's what i've done for years!!(in a more fast paced, high volume environment) i met some of the workers, everyone seems cool and that's where the tour ended.
it was explained it will take 2 weeks for them to make a decision and they will contact me either way with what they decide. guys!! i am seriously hoping i get this job! full time, in my city still near by, more hours more money, and benefits! this would be my ticket to open the doors a bit more of my life. NEW everything! to kick my ass in gear and fight for the future. exactly what i need! ahh! fingers crossed!! ;))
anyway. kickstart my heArt. great Motley Crue song and i've basically made it my quote, my fighting chant to kick my ass and get my creative juices going and flowing like they once were. not the procrastinated, half assed, starting a project and not finishing it.
drawing i have been working on my free hand drawing lately. never thought i was ever good at it and i couldn't understand how to get my imagination on paper. looking up tutorials on youtube to refreshing my skills on figure drawing, anatomy, perspective, etc. most of my skill was i am capable of drawing something just looking at it and copying it to almost a T. being a cartoon, logos, portraits to an extent. since i love to do print making: block printing, lino cuts and hope to soon afford a new silk screen, i want to make and print more elaborate drawings.
so guys i could use your help. deadlines have a tendency to make you work harder and which it did in school! i know it's kind hard to ask you, via internet, to be like "hey, Mikey!, this needs to be done by so and so!" haha but rather give me some options to draw. cartoon characters, super hero's, a logo, anything and i will give it my all to have it done by a certain time frame.
music is my life. i've been a practicing singer since a young teenager and i have been in and out of bands but i have never been recorded, ever. whether i was singing clean, heavy metal style or death metal. which makes me quite sad and angry. my main goal and purpose i think i am here is to be some kind of performer. but i kind of lived in the shadows of my own fear. while i struggle with the search to find musicians to jam with i have been feeding a thought of making videos of some sort. the guy i work with on the podcast plays guitar and we're suppose to jam but he doesn't work and my schedule and sleep habits, no car, make it's hard to meet. so maybe like Instagram clips or even using my webcam to shed some light on myself. would you guys be interested in hearing me?
video this is also applies to music^. i spent a month in a program online to learn Final Cut Pro X for the podcast i work for on the weekends. taking some responsibilities off the owner/main interviewer and also for future performances when we split into 2 teams to cover more bands. $25 for a month, 6 hours of video footage with a narrator. i only worked with this program very, very little over the summer, so it was difficult to retain all the information and i felt the narrator goes super quick haha. soon as i have the spare i am going to invest in another month and try not to procrastinate as much because it is important. speaking of important, it has me thinking, when i do learn this program i will be able to make pro like videos of myself containing to recording myself singing.
everything i have been thinking lately has some kind of connection and an outlet so why i am hiding? i need to stop being afraid.
exercise i've recently added Whey Protein to my diet. in which, i need to buy some more cause 2 lbs barely lasts a week and a half. i've been at my target weight for awhile now and i'm find it hard to bulk up on muscle. anyone use Whey or any tips on building more muscle mass. i don't do much cardio, i stick to mainly lifting. bodybuilding.com has been to helpful for exercises. it has exercises designated for which muscles you are targeting.
other than that, not much to tell you guys. this is has been on my mind lately.
i've recently went to the Cannibal Corpse / Behemoth show, fuckin killleerr! you may have seen some of the pics and video that was linked through my Instagram on SG. maybe i'll do a photodump down the lane because i do have a good bit.
also, along the lines of photos. i know i was suppose to blog about seeing Watain awhile ago and posting photos. that phone i had at the time decided to shit the bed on me and i couldn't recover anything!! i was upset. i had tons more of my phone than what i have posted on Instagram. i need invent in a flash drive or something
recently, involving the podcast. last weekend was a big success for us. we are partners with an agency, DVT Entertainment, friends of ours from the other bar they used to book at. they booked a national band at the new venue we are working out of, Bullshooters Saloon! Benjamin Burnley of Breaking Benjamins. i'm sure you have heard of them. it was himself, the drummer, and guitarist doing an acoustic set. they are currently embarking on a short low key acoustic tour. we were set to interview just Benjamin but even better we got all 3! we were shooting for doing the interview before the show like we always do but Benjamin wanted to go to the hotel to get a shower, no problem. he said he would definitely do an interview even if it had to take place afterwards. of course, rock and roll fashion he is late! haha. but it didn't matter he kept his word and we did it after their set. it was awesome! really nice, laid back and funny guys. this was a step up for us and it couldn't have gone any better. hoping this will put us on a marker for national bands and hopefully maybe get paid! haha you can check out facebook page and listen to the interview if you please
^^awesome!
well i think that's all i got for you guys.. suppose to interview a band tomorrow, Ammunition, but i think i'm going to sit this one out. it's been a rough week. haven't been feeling good the past couple days. not sickly, just stressed and in need of some very well needed sleep!
i hope you all are doing well, ttyl
