hello! from the couch that i haven't moved from since i got home work. i somehow managed to catch another cold. really wondering what is up with me. this is the 3rd time this winter season and the first time was in October, which isnt winter. it was literally like 3 weeks ago i had gotten over a pretty bad cold. this time however doesnt seem too bad but its exhausting me. less coughing, but my damn nose is a snotty faucet! the headaches/fogginess is a bonus i guess! haha.
really has me thinking of the possibilities cause i am never this sick this amount of times. is my immune system not up to par? the chronic stress i am under and can't seem to clear the negativity? my work schedule that interferes with the sleep i already had trouble with due to stress (i am up at 2:15am to start work at 4:00am, my average sleep a night is 4-5 hours, give or take) the crazy up and down weather?
im going with stress and sleep deprivation. just feeling a bit lost, lonely and overwhelmed with thoughts on life, work and future.
i have been neglecting my daily exercise and hobbies or half assing them. starting 2015 off shitty.
i wanted to blog about my first concert of 2015, which was WATAIN and MAYHEM on 1.8.15. the Black Metal Warfare Tour! unfortunately Mayhem had to cancel their set due to visa problems in New York. Watain headlined and it was incredible. i will eventually upload all the photos and videos, cause i have a ton! my phone charger for my replacement phone is at my uncles house and i have been using a old charger to charge the phone and it seems thats the only thing it'll let me do, just charge it.
my birthday is next Tuesday, the 27th. not sure how i feel about it this year. of course no one likes getting older. just think its the stress getting to me, eating me alive. really wish i had enough cash to get a way, even for the day but life right now i am playing catch up, cell phone, bills, etc. guess we'll see...
sorry for the grime, even though its vague, think i needed to vent a little.
hope all is well in your world. ;)
