so tiring looking at job post after job post after job post, day after day after day!! checking emails every so often, hoping the phone rings, argh! i know it isnt easy. its just frustrating cause everyday i feel sicker being at my current employer. i am tired of being in PAIN! physically and mentally. i dont like/didnt want to write a shitty blog but thats where my mind has been. even more discouraging are the posts you dont qualify for or no experience. i admit i have a shitty work background. i hate the fact that "warehouse" is my main background. i did sales for a very short time and it fucking blew. selling fish stunk![literally!].
a lot of "woulda, shoulda, coulda" thoughts...
recently i have said, fuck it, just throw yourself out there. so i put some resumes out there for "law firm office assistants", why not? i am very computer literate and im sure i can hustle for someone. its funny being on SG and all the people you talk to in different countries makes me wish i knew a language. i only received one reply from an employer, today actually. their posting did say "can speak fluent Chinese" because its some law firm in Chinatown, where im not sure but didnt think it would be much forced. todays email asked "could you speak Chinese", well i cant. so that makes me think thats out. but i much appreciate their reply. cause i hate when you get left in the dark even after many tries of contacting employers just to see if they received your application/resume. JUST TELL ME NO! haha but i am wondering if i shoud. i kind of want to and just be honest. you never know.. atleast there will be a answer..
and im sure my hairyness is not going to help me at all getting a job. long hair. beard. i have thought if it were to come to it and someone was willing to take me in, i would shave my beard. im sure i could get away with a ponytail or braid. and as desperate as i am, not this weekend but the following, March 31st is the Philadelphia Beard and Mustache Championship 2013. i am going and the ticket that i bought allows me to compete. im still undecided cause i know there a better beards out there than mine. but they have categories for all sorts of "full beard inches", which i could give a go. i kinda want to. its the 2nd Annual Championship, i never even knew there was a first one! so i am very interested. theres always a twist somewhere..
simply,
i wish something would go my way for once. i know I have to apply myself to get the things i want done. just feeling like this doesnt help.
hope you all are doing well
a lot of "woulda, shoulda, coulda" thoughts...
recently i have said, fuck it, just throw yourself out there. so i put some resumes out there for "law firm office assistants", why not? i am very computer literate and im sure i can hustle for someone. its funny being on SG and all the people you talk to in different countries makes me wish i knew a language. i only received one reply from an employer, today actually. their posting did say "can speak fluent Chinese" because its some law firm in Chinatown, where im not sure but didnt think it would be much forced. todays email asked "could you speak Chinese", well i cant. so that makes me think thats out. but i much appreciate their reply. cause i hate when you get left in the dark even after many tries of contacting employers just to see if they received your application/resume. JUST TELL ME NO! haha but i am wondering if i shoud. i kind of want to and just be honest. you never know.. atleast there will be a answer..
and im sure my hairyness is not going to help me at all getting a job. long hair. beard. i have thought if it were to come to it and someone was willing to take me in, i would shave my beard. im sure i could get away with a ponytail or braid. and as desperate as i am, not this weekend but the following, March 31st is the Philadelphia Beard and Mustache Championship 2013. i am going and the ticket that i bought allows me to compete. im still undecided cause i know there a better beards out there than mine. but they have categories for all sorts of "full beard inches", which i could give a go. i kinda want to. its the 2nd Annual Championship, i never even knew there was a first one! so i am very interested. theres always a twist somewhere..
simply,
i wish something would go my way for once. i know I have to apply myself to get the things i want done. just feeling like this doesnt help.
hope you all are doing well