death_groove

well hello.. its been awhile since i blogged. the weather this morning is amazing. fall is around the corner! Halloween is on its way! my favorite holiday and season. im actually up earlier than usual. i have an appointment with the brain Doc. i had a bunch of tests done about 2 weeks ago so we'll see what came outta that. i know for sure the new med i take now doesn't work. so i'm sure i'll be prescribed another one. i hate that. i dont like taking medicine but i havent had any relief at all from this Neuralgia. it was a grooling work week last week. i dont think one day went smooth or i wasn't aggravated, even with home life. i really need to get something going in my life but i wont go any further cause i dont wanna rant. this past weekend was alright. there was a party on friday so i went there after work. i planned on only having a couple and not staying out late, well that turned into going home at 7am haha, its been awhile since i did that. i was exhausted the next day and definitely didnt get the sleep i wanted. i was abruptly woken by my mother cause a friend wanted help from me to help him work on a friends house laying down tiles in the kitchen. i have no skills but for some reason he always comes to me. extremely tired and hung over, i am on a saw cutting away ceramic tiles as he glued them down. and of course it had to start raining! the saw was in the yard. soaked from that and the machine itself runs off of water i guess to keep the blade fresh so as he cut its spraying water at you lol. i was aggravated cause i was thrown into it by my mother, if my friend would of asked me for help it would of been a different story. but anyway so yeah, supposedly i'll get paid for my contribution but i have doubts cause this friend has been out of work for quite some time. so sunday, i finally got to the art store! thats what i hate about myself, i make plans in my head and my actions majority of the time fail. im tired of that. but i got there. i needed new blades for my block printing, new sketch book, another printing roller and pencils. it really made me want to goto school and not for nothing it has been on my mind. i just really dont know what to do. well i'd write a little more but im kinda pushing time for my appointment and i'm biking there.. ttyl