deanna

ick. ok so ive been under a bit of stress lately...there is a month left until my grad show and until i graduate and that is stressful because well, its time for me to get a career and get my own place...moving again...all of that scares me. i know im probably going to end up working a mediocore job for a few months until i can get one in my field and that is really expected and a small sacrifice if i can be doing something i love and actually make money from it. that would be perfect.

i went to visit my dad this weekend up in the country. i love going out there and just getting away. i needed to escape my drama filled mind. riding a dirtbike. laying out in the sun. riding a bicycle down the long empty roads and stopping at the park to sit in the swings for a while...

i always love my fathers advice, he is a true male and tells me how it is and holds nothing back and i like that. my dad is truly one of the most genuine men in the world and if there was one person i respect the most in this world it would be him. its really scary how much of myself i can see in him. i really dont think he has any idea how much i look up to him.

anyways, he has given this whole stressful time a new spin because he made me a deal if i graduate and i get a job in my field then he is taking me on a vacation, all expenses paid by him...SOOOOOOO that makes deanna a very happy girl...and it definitely inspires me even more...

well back to classes this week...so i need to get my ass in gear.