So she broke up with me..............waht the hey. She told me me were getting too serious. which puzzles me casue she s the one who said first that she wanted a serious commited relationship. But hey at least we werent together so long that it was a heart wreching breakup. she said she wanted to break up and I said ok thats her choice. Thats...
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clover:
probably my journals as I am on there more. I'll call you soon though.
so everybody on here said give her a chance so i did so me and steph are dateing now but tehn the worst thing happened friday night,,,,,me and here well we decided to go beyond just making out for the first time since well the relationship is going pretty good. she used birth control pills and has beeen using them for awhile I used a...
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yummysugah:
birth control are afective 99% of the time.
she can always take the 'morning after' pill. she can take the pill 48 hours after haing sex.
don't worry
she can always take the 'morning after' pill. she can take the pill 48 hours after haing sex.
don't worry
benni:
don't worry so much, todd, bet everything is fine. i'll keep my fingers crossed for you just in case, but i've got a lot of friends who have had close calls and been fine. all of them on the pill. no use worrying. get some ice cream! i love ice cream.
teehee... and i'm glad you liked my *super secret* pseudo-set. god i was happy to share those with everyone!
teehee... and i'm glad you liked my *super secret* pseudo-set. god i was happy to share those with everyone!
so I'm waiting for the girl i went out with sunday to call me back ,, we did agree thoguh that we arent going to get serious right now csaue well I dunno, i wouldn't mind being commiteed with someoen but shes a bit younger than me andwell teh way sheacts around me i meen its nice its damn flattering but well part of me...
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maitressedemence:
you better stop with this benni obsession! lol... nah i'm just playing.. i have some obsessions with sg girls too... i mean, come on.. who doesn't? 
ok thsi weekend has ben abit topsy turvy I started seeign this girl but it feel abit strange casue she looks alot younger than she is csaue shes 18 and well she looks alot younger but i have seen her drivers liscence and shes definetly 18. at teh same tim though for some reason i want to date someone closer to my age. and I...
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maitressedemence:
well, 3 years difference is not that much... i'd give her a chance 
clover:
age is not that important in my opinion, its really about what age she acts because I have met some 23 year olds who act like they are fucking 7
Thank you Benni , Yummy, and girlygirlgabbie for your words of encouragement in my last journal . i really do appreciate knowing that there is peopel there for me.
I'm still feeling sad though I had to cancel alot ofthigns csaue of the court case in august. I had to cancel me getting a tatoo till after that and well my date to the...
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I'm still feeling sad though I had to cancel alot ofthigns csaue of the court case in august. I had to cancel me getting a tatoo till after that and well my date to the...
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boo1:
im here fer you!!....and yea i got yer story....i got washed down the drain.
benni:
there's alwayss people there for you, sweetie... but you know that. hugs for you too... hope your weekend is a good one...
okie doke so still got the whoel criminal record thing on my mind and well the thing with wae is tearing me up inside i try not to think about it i really have been trying hard but tehn somebody just mentions her name to me on the phone asking me how shes doing and tears start to pour down my face I only wish...
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maitressedemence:
i dont' think anyone in this world has had a "perfect" year... things always go wrong.. that's just life.. .just have to say fuck it and keep your head up... don't let things get to you so easily...
benni:
awww... it'll be better. i've been having a series of bad weeks myself, but godammit, i believe. sorry i haven't been around much... im always on the go... but i'm thinking of you, try to think positive...
damn doctors... i need to see one myself...
damn doctors... i need to see one myself...
Thank you all for your votes of confidence and letters back thak you Shera for teh letter back i appreciated it highly. Thank you Yummy for the liitel short smile message. I really appreciate it.
I'm depressed as hell though casue well Wae told me last ngiht that she snorts morphine now
and if i can't accept her for what she does than i shouldn't...
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I'm depressed as hell though casue well Wae told me last ngiht that she snorts morphine now
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deadsweetheart:
ok to cheeer myself up today were gonna make some blueberry muffins....... I gotta do something to keep mymind off of all thsi calamity
maitressedemence:
if she cares more about her drugs than your friendship then it doesn't sound like she's a very good friend to begin with...
yummm blueberry muffins
yummm blueberry muffins
god damn i'm depressed i found out none of my e-mails reach benni anymore which sucks plus i got allthe stuff in my previous journal entry's happeningam i depressed enough to knock myself off ? no casue well My freind ehather threatened to bring me back from teh dead and torture my undead body if i did 
thanks heather.
I wonder thoguh at times can...
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thanks heather.
I wonder thoguh at times can...
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yummysugah:
just don't forget to
shit ,,,,, I had a panic attack for 2 hours thsi morning and dry heaved for about 30 minutes casue my freind wae mentioned that she is moving awayin 3 yeaars with some dude name josh ( i don't know her relationship with him casue she just broke up with a guy named joe). Wae shot the shit about her doing some drugs when i...
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maitressedemence:
um... not to be rude, but it sounds like you need to get some self esteem, or some self assurance... don't live your life around what your friends are doing.. thats no fun.. it's good to care, but i think there is such a thing as caring too much... people will walk all over you...
So now Benni on here is sad so I know i wont hear from her for awhile and well its sounds like a love situation in her last journal entry as far as I can tell and I don't want to but in casue well i do like her alot and the last thign she needs right now issomeone hitting on her.
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