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So last ngiht I get am IM from Kristen saying im being totally immature for not talking to her ,,,but welli wasnt talking ot her csaue i was wating for steam to blow over but later inteh concversation shes goes to insult me by saying "yknow why no one came to your b-day party todd ,,,casue your creepy ,, you creep me out ever think abouthat for a second " which though if this is true it meens she lied to me casueshe told me she had to work aht day the week before and thtsts why she didnt come.

later i talked to stacy about this and she says im a little creepy but not that bad ,,, but then she goes on to tell em she used to thik iw as an attractive man till she foudn out that im not a " mans man ". WTF I didnt need to knwo that ,i already knew she wasnt atractedto me anymore i really didnt need a reason , or evena reason thatd kick me inthe balls basically.

allthisis leaving me rahter meloncholy and doubting the validity of several freindship i have in life in general.

in other news i foudn out that my oen online friend might be married and i didnt know. reason i say this is casue her myspace profiel which she updates often says shes single and Bi,,but then i just recently read an article about her in Gothic Beauty saying that she sewed her own wedding gress and her husbands suit for their wedding. So im confused ,,,i would ask her but well i cant mesage her on myspace due to the fact that shes got an away message up on there. The onyl reaosn i wasnted to ask her is becasue shes coming up here to go toa rasputina concert wiht me and i wanted to be agentleman and kiss her on the hand ,,,but well i dont want to do that if shes got a husband casue well umm awkwardness.

I dunno i jsutwish i coudl ahvea fucking good week solid for once

T