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i dont see a poem..where is it???

The longing for fall's "lukewarm embrace" strikes a chord: one grows weary of the intense heat of summer.

This was written by my friend Chen, and I dedicate it to you, my friend who loves the autumn.

Thoughts of you so warm.
I have known you all my life.
The scent of autumn.

Hmm so taday wnet okay and without hitches and i might get saturady off ,,maybe pending what my boss says ( my dad). hmm waht to do. I do know sunday i have to start work on the ring for Poe. It shouldnt take me long liek 2 hours maybe tops but hey its nice to give someone a gift. Um I wanna say mroe but well umm I got to go eat some pizza for dinner. And then the usaul 10 yard naked dash to the shower later on.


your pal
Todd

spumoni ice cream is fucking great. I hadnt even thought of that one.....i've had a craving for chocolate chip ice cream lately. hmmmmm

I think it's cool that you have so many hobbies. Blacksmithing!? WOW!

"Wouldn't be prudent..." HEE! Dana Carvey's impression of the first president Bush kills me! Don't start smoking. And stop bonking your head. And take your vitamins. And let me know when you're free to hang out next week.

thanks for the good luck! it went just fine...but my boss's tell me i'm a tough cookie anyway hehh

it sounds to me like you have an attachment problem... you aren't happy unless you have someone by your side at all times... you need to learn to be happy with yourself... and don't avoid going places just there are people you don't like there.. hell if i did that i'd never be able to leave the house... it's a free world, you can hang out there too.. just ignore them...

i have been suicidal also in the past, and i don't have insurance... my local health department has a mental heath unit... maybe you should look into that.. do you have a health department near by? those places are great... i get my birthcontrol there also for free!

What a charming piece! You've whimsically captured the romance and fun of a Halloween night out with someone you love. Keep writing, my dear!

hey, i dont know you, so i really dont want to get into something that has nothing to do with me, but please dont speak poorly of boygeorgeismymom shes been my best friend for years....

I'm so sorry you're feeling badly, kitten.

yeah I'm alve I spun the chamber and puled the trigger 6 times and wel thats the only luck I have i guess ,,,i cant die for some damn reason ,,,,worse things have happened and wel they havent killed me either. I went to a pipe in my basement later and pulle dhte trigger 3 tiems and the third time it went off so it was loaded.

I really need to write some poetry damn it.

Todd

Fuck that stupid bitch. SHe'll be miserable anyway......getting back with yer ex is ALWAYS a bad idea, look at my situation

YKNOW WHAT FUCK IT ALL JSUT FUCK IT ALL < BECASUE ALL I SEEM TO DO IS GET EVERYBODY PISSED AT ME NO MATTER WHAT> I REALLY DO SOMETIMES WISH I COULD DROWN MY FUCKING SORROWS IN A BOTTLE OR PILL

by the way the message above is not directed at everyone

TOdd

yes I probably am loosing a freind I meen cmon she told me that when she was with him she never got to hang outwith her freinds and that she broek up wiht him becasue he was alwasy making fun of her faults. and that she didnt want to date anyone at all .

If anyone neds me I'll be playing russian roulette

Todd

home made furniture is the best... sorry i didn't even see that you posted your number... i missed your last journal.. i've been really busy lately

m 6st months membership is about to end

Well, I was born and raised in Baltimore and then I moved away about 4 years ago...Hm...My face looks familiar huh? I wonder if we've ever run into one another before. Strange...
Anyhow, I'd give you a hug or a kiss on the cheek if I could. I don't like it when people get depressed. I'm sorry darlin'.
Feel better okay?