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so last night at the club was ok .I do finaly realize now period and am accepting that kele de will NEVER love me and I wont ever bea close freind of hers whihc sucks but well to fuck with it i really dont care anymore its all locked away inside of me now. I am staying away from her when shes with her umm...
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thnaks for the solstice wishes fromt eh few peopel taht wished me a happy solstice i got an e-card form blyther which was nice too.

my solstice wasnt enjoyable that much went out most of the day was aloen thena frind asked me to drive ehr to teh tattoo parlor so i did but she asked me to stopa nd pickup her e freind w...
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well happy solstice everybody , nothing much up here ive got the day off and no one to do anything with at all soim feeling quite alone.

the one girl i liked awhile back well she took me off her favourites list on myspace and she mailed me a message which I cant read cause myspace wont let me read it.

so im feeling like...
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well in the news today i slipped on the ice and did a split ,,, it hurts to walk. before that lifeted 10 large house radiators into the back of the pickup truck. getting them in wasnt that bad but getting them out of the truck bed in the mud at the scrapyrad was pain in the ass especially since i didnt wnat ot scratch...
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so my new tattoo is healing well and it doesnt hurt or itch. outside teh net ive only told mayeb 3 peopel about it ,,havent told anyone at teh club about it and probably wont. which some peopel find strange but well the thng is ai wrote a peom awhiel back about heys and rusty hearts fora girl and well i dont want anyone makng...
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ok so for years ive wanted to get a tatoos but msotly it was eiterh a money problem , i didnt liek the shop , or no one wanted to go with me . so last ngith i went with my aqaintance tarryn and she got hers and i decided to fork out a lil money and geta skelton keyhoel tattoed over my heart. admittidly...
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I got my first card in years today for the holidays it was a postacrd from Song thank you song yaaaay.

its supposed ot snow tommorw really bad then after taht freezing rain. i ahve to go to the club tommorw too..argh stress. Hope i dont ahve an anxiety attack while im there ( i dont wig out i just feel liek im gona spew)...
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so im all confused nwo she was mad a t me but now shes nto ,, and were stil friends and goddess im about to have a fucking breakdown . im not messageing her anymore though casue its gets worse cause i say all the wrong words though. teh heartbreak is gone but in its stead is a large ffeling of inadequacy becasue shes 32...
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So i may no longer be woelcome at the club ,, the girl i loved hates me now and wellmy socail life is now in shambles. Im really seriously considering shooting myself.

Todd

PS if your bored send me a hiya at myspace

i think i'm leading my heart to teh slaughter and ,,,,,it realyl realyl hurts . Kele De and Pixie were whispering about some guy tongiht. and later i saw the guy holding her hand. So i do beleive i may be leading my heart to the slaughter with her. Shes the first woman ive truly opened my heart to in 3 long years and now...
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