dont think I can remember feeling happiness like I have today... And it all came from some very kind words in a text message......
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO:
Artist: Iron & Wine Lyrics
Song: Such Great Heights Lyrics
I am thinking it's a sign
That the freckles in our eyes
Are mirror images and
When we kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate
That...
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CURRENTLY LISTENING TO:
Artist: Iron & Wine Lyrics
Song: Such Great Heights Lyrics
I am thinking it's a sign
That the freckles in our eyes
Are mirror images and
When we kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate
That...
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I dont think I can remember feeling happiness like I have today... And it all came from some very kind words in a text message......
Well my happiness was short lived. The chemicals they are pumping into my body are again beating me down and drudging up the usual questions that no one can answer. On top of that today had the lovely addition of radiation to make my body burn from the inside out and numb my brain to the point that I could not find my way home...
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ojaeflo:
Be strong, bud.
I'm rooting for ya.
I'm rooting for ya.

zoton:
Hang in there. Worst part is that the onclogists are usually so desensitised that they never know how to deal with it/warn you about the whole thing. All I can say is be strong and hope to god you don't have to go through anther cycle.
Even with the waves of cheical madness that the chemo has tormented me with, and knowing that there is still several weeks of it to come, it is nice to be able to get lost in the fantasies and dreams of better days from the past and hope for the future. And all though I know that tomorrow I start 5 days straight of the...
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kay:
Hang in there love.
~cheers
~cheers
Yeah I got nothing
kay:
At least you can admit to it.
Drop me a line to let me know how you are feeling. Chemo sucks ass.
~cheers
Drop me a line to let me know how you are feeling. Chemo sucks ass.
~cheers
I see Orin in the sky at night,
and wish I could posesss his strength.
My heart torn between a path I desire
and the path that is ultimately right.
The brilliance I am told that burns within me
I am unfortunatley unable to see,
when with everyday spent in the lifes
of those I love I only bring growing misery.
To protect those I...
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and wish I could posesss his strength.
My heart torn between a path I desire
and the path that is ultimately right.
The brilliance I am told that burns within me
I am unfortunatley unable to see,
when with everyday spent in the lifes
of those I love I only bring growing misery.
To protect those I...
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kayna:
hippie
kayna:
j/k, what! always forgetting those who don't know me sometimes take the things i say at face value..
which they never are.
well, basically, i mean, well, calling you a hippie meant I really enjoyed your writing and wish you mystical well-being.
last word.
which they never are.
well, basically, i mean, well, calling you a hippie meant I really enjoyed your writing and wish you mystical well-being.
last word.
So today I went to the doctor. They shot me full of dye and ran some tests. And ofcourse the doctor couldnt give me a straight answer at first just as I suspected. He wanted me to talk with a counselor first and read some pamphlets etc... He berated me for letting this go for so long. Eventually he could see that I was getting...
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ojaeflo:
Courage.

ojaeflo:
Well, I'll be here.

Well it seems that my health care has kicked in yesterday and now it looks as if I will finally get the operation I have needed for almost 2 years now. I guess its better late then never. Although with my problem thats one of those "Knock on wood" statements because time usually only makes this worse.
But only some tests will reveal that. Then...
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kay:
Well, I'm glad sweetie! That has got to be a relief.
~cheers
~cheers
gypsyphoenix:
I will devour you
Take all the pain away
I cannot stay my hand
From reaching out so that I can
Empower you
For all eternity
It seems to ease my mind
To know that youve brought
Meaning to my life
Take all the pain away
I cannot stay my hand
From reaching out so that I can
Empower you
For all eternity
It seems to ease my mind
To know that youve brought
Meaning to my life
FINAL POST
I didnt think it was possible for my heart to break worse then it did when I divorced my exwife. Apparently I was worng. And this time the loss is greater than I ever inagined possible.
I didnt think it was possible for my heart to break worse then it did when I divorced my exwife. Apparently I was worng. And this time the loss is greater than I ever inagined possible.
kay:
??
I call this one:
THANKS FOR THE BAGGAGE
You've poisened my head beyond repair
You played your last scene well.
So go ahead, and take a bow
and let your pride swell.
So kind and so sweet
you pulled me in.
You swallowed my heart whole.
But as your lies fell away
I saw you had no soul.
You raped our vows
betrayed my trust...
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THANKS FOR THE BAGGAGE
You've poisened my head beyond repair
You played your last scene well.
So go ahead, and take a bow
and let your pride swell.
So kind and so sweet
you pulled me in.
You swallowed my heart whole.
But as your lies fell away
I saw you had no soul.
You raped our vows
betrayed my trust...
Read More