deadofwinter

Even with the waves of cheical madness that the chemo has tormented me with, and knowing that there is still several weeks of it to come, it is nice to be able to get lost in the fantasies and dreams of better days from the past and hope for the future. And all though I know that tomorrow I start 5 days straight of the chemo and know that its going to fuck me up, I am thankful that for atleast today I felt normal again. And a lot of the credit for that goes to the person that helped me realize it.

Now that I know what the chemicals in my system can do to me, and know what to expect, I can be prepared to fight them so that this week does not end up like the last.